Catmad Inc.

2010-09-19T03:30:00.000-07:00

我在想。
如果自己已开始就没有机会来到这个世界。
我将会是多么的欢喜

快乐。
如果我不存在。
完全的不存在
只是一个没血没泪的静止的东西。

我将会过得多么的逍遥。

是。人有很多快乐。
但是总是得不偿失。
而我却那么的痛苦。

痛苦因为我难过。
痛苦因为我失落。
痛苦因为被误会。

而更痛苦在于明明知道自己没有资格说痛苦。
因为身边更痛苦的人存在。
每天被一堆事情折腾。
我好想一闭上眼睛就可以永远的离开这烦人的红尘。

不是好想。
是非常想。
我好想脱掉一切的责任。
用一把刀把自己的呼吸静止掉。
我好想把手机摔到远远的。
拔掉自己家里的无限网。
再把电脑砸烂。
再把所有的电话线都拆掉

再去到一个没有人的地方生活。
给我一个烂洞穴也好。
给我一个潮湿的地下水购也好。
我会很安详的在那里躺着。
至少我知道，这比家中的现代蜘蛛网来得安详。

我

不需要枕头。
不需要棉被。
哪怕只有水泥地代替床褥。
哪怕只有几片烂纸皮作棉被。
哪怕只有滴滴答答的漏水声当摇篮曲。
我会安详。
我只想堕落。
只想在一边腐烂。
我想静止。
我想把一切的一切都甩掉。

何谓学业？放屁。
何谓他人之关心？虚伪
何谓他人之赞美？重伤
何谓今生的一切？报应

如果一天我疯了。
被抓到精神病院去。
就那样一辈子关在一间白色弹劾房间里。
最好把我的双胳膊和双腿都绑起来。

就让我静止。就让我堕落。

到时候，我其实并没有疯。
而是以疯子的身份过静止着的生活.
我没有勇气
我没有力气
你可以批评我。
你可以刁难我。
但是
你不可能伤害到我。

不要管我。
不要烦我
你走你的阳光道
我走我的独木桥。

我和你们井水不犯河水。
扪心自问。
你们是哪门子的咖
你们凭什么审判我。
你们凭什么

连我都不认识。
根本就不理解我。
就为我下了判决。
好啊
就这样。

夜深了在街上。
小心背后有小鬼跟着
夜深了在家里。
小心床底有不速之客
夜深了在梦里。
小心我会找上你梦境

让他人生不如死的过日子。
你也绝对不会她妈的好过。
你给我记住。

你会有报应的

2009-06-26T21:11:00.000-07:00

ＰＬＥＡＳＥ　ＣＬＩＣＫ！haha do me a favour. xiexie nimen! <33

2009-05-03T08:12:00.000-07:00

人生就像候车月台.有人走有人来.

我不想你走行吗?

可能在别人眼里.
你只是一只动物而已.
你不只是.你是我的朋友.
我的家人.

我再也无法在晚上听见你轮子滚动的声音
我再也无法感觉你小舌头舔我的感觉
我再也无法感受你的心跳
我再也无法抱着你温暖的身体

但你会永远活在我心里.
你给我的回忆我会记得
我会珍惜
谢谢你带给我所有的快乐
甚至是烦恼和忧虑.
你给我所有的感动我会紧记在心

你突然的离开,我承受不住
你永远活在我的心里

有缘,来生再见.

2009-04-26T02:39:00.000-07:00

101 things to do! and not enough time ):
IH research proposal is taking up alot of time from my life.

which leaves me with ---
NO LIFE!

i cant wait for june holidays.

BUt i have SO MUCH DEBT TO CLEAR. HAIZ. this is SO saddening! ):

2009-04-23T09:10:00.000-07:00

IM TERRIBLY HAUNTED MY LANGUAGE ARTS

-- i was listening to the radio:
Where people were discussing Ms California's reply to the question posted to her by Perez Hilton. HONESTLY. Every living human being. IS entitled to an opinion.

And i think for that, the judges should respect her perspective.

And from my own opinion, i think she is just being honest.

Honestly, how many beauty queens will give you a true answer? Okay, lets not center it around beauty queens, but people you see in everyday life. Scholarship interviews, job interviews, tv interviews. How many true answers do you really get?

DO YOU EVEN WANT TO HEAR A TRUE ANSWER? -
OR JUST a POLITICALLY-CORRECT ANSWER? ):

Actualy, i agree to a large extent with her answer.
- Firstly, i am happy that people are now free to choose their partners from either the same gender or of the opposite gender.

- Secondly, i honestly from my own opinion. Think that a marriage. should probably be best between a man and woman. Beuaty lies in the eyes of the beholder. I respect decisions of gays and lesbians. I woulddnt deny them of marrying with people of the same sex. Honestly, they are human beings too. AND HERE I AM HAUNTED BY LA.
=> Human beings are products of society.
=> We look at things through filtered eye
=> Filters created by society/influenced by society.
=> Facts are cheap.
=> What that are really valuable is perspectives.

And honestly from my own opinion,
an ideal marriage would most likely,
be a marriage between a man and a woman.
Researchers have said that sex is important in keeping a marriage.
A marrige alive.

(Ok. I am ill-informed in this area.
Are people able to engage in such activity with partners from the same sex?)

Still, there is still another side to this argument that.
people are attracted to each other by sex appeal.
Sex appeals sells, indeed it sells.
Look at the media, look at the streets. Look around you.
How many girls love mini-skirts? Hot shorts? Bikinis? V-Neck?
And how many guys are attracted to skinny, tight asses?
How many girls are yearning for that ideal
- nose height
- bony figure.
like bony but still abit of fats.
skinny thighs. Tight bodies. big boobs.
- - how many stars are packaged and sell in the media
as sexy women/men. Look at the Hush Puppies Male underwear collection.
Look at those men parade around with their buff upper bodies and rather lean muscular feet.

WOMEN DROOL... --
ok back to same gender mariage.
without sex appeal. the cover
will one be really able to find a partner that is truly beautiful from within.
An ugly girl vs a beautiful girl. How will you judge them?

So many questions that i cannot answer myelf. But i think that Perez Hilton should respect her views. Actually lat time i had a question likes, why do beauty paegents even have these question and answer tests. WHO SPEAKS THE TRUTH???? D:

GAH. such a headache. THANKS TO LA. (:
thats all for today! nights i have a medical appointment tmrw. sleeping early. WOW this time is CALLED EARLY XD

ok byebye (:

2009-04-21T09:30:00.000-07:00

OMG.

i feel
so
NARCISSITIC!
ok, did i spell that correctly :D
aiya just zilian la
but the prob is.
i'm not really mad abt my own face --
hah photoshop makes me look better :D
MUAHHHAH DESATURATE AND THE FILTERS MUAHAHA
:D ok bye.
i WANT TO SLEEP! aRGH!

2009-04-19T11:54:00.000-07:00

FINALLY, i finished the designs for bspcamp2009.
URGH. my mom says that i really look like a mad woman in front of a laptop.

she says its scary.
what can you imagine?
me sitting in front of a comp.halft tied hair
pulled back fringe in a kiap
2 cups of icewater
a cat on the lap
rough paper at the sides
lots of pencils.
quite a pissed look plastered on the face.
in a half-lit room.

so the face is like, half lit too?
like most of the light on the face,
is the light from the laptop screen.

really.SCARY.
its 2:57am
ive been working on it since 11.00pm yesterday. ):
FINALLY ITS DONE
for sure it wouldnt be selected.
i can just imagine how wonderful other designs are.
):
haha. nvm i have decided to stop wallowing in sadness
sadness like the previousprevious post.
i will be happy!
actually quite shiok to stay up.
i cant sleep anyway.
my flu is getting better already
except that theres still a choked throat.
full of green phlegm.
popped ears. ):
have that floaty feeling.
and my toothaches ):
must be my braces
haha (:

nextup ->
making a handmade card for beloved! :D
i've wasted loads of time today.
PMS at the internet connection
procrastinating about things that i've to do
played the piano today (:
learnt my Ballade Pour Adeline more!!
i dont know why, but when i heard that song
i fell in love with it (:
played the piano for a total of 3hrs today! :D
had chicken rice for dinner made by my mom.
haha of course it is vegetarian :D im vegetarian!
its fake chicken! x)

and i just couldnt resist watching the square box of wonder
the square box you control using a remote! xD
aiya. its the TV la! :D
couldnt resist watching: 爱、综艺大哥大
looking forward to my 凤凰四重唱 first epi tmrw!
爱情全保 is nice. haiz. all hkdramas are NICE!
aiqinquanbao is nice, lighthearted and heartwarming!
love it! :D

shall go do my handmade card for yaya
bye!

2009-04-19T08:50:00.000-07:00

extremes of the moodmeter for me

cheered up. by the channel u commercial for planet earth
went to google the song:

What a Wonderful World - Louis Armstrong

thank you for lifting my spirits and my heavy heart Louis.
and i believe, you've lifted many many other hearts too.

2009-04-19T07:34:00.000-07:00

when you think you can rely on someone,
you trust them and sincerely ask for their advices etc
but when they fail you.
or just dont care
what do you do?

it just feels weird that it is not like before anymore.
i dont think i ever left a person to fend or die on his or her own.
i just thought that

when i was there for people
why did they not care when i really badly needed someone to be there with me?
):

at the end of the day
no friends ):
nobody
nothing
nothing at the end of the day.

i feel like clamming up from the rest of the world.
):
stupid that ive been taken for a ride.
stupid that pple treat you like shit when you are really sincere.
at the end of the day
you have no one to depend on except for yourself and your own family.
what a sad ending.

theres really nosuch thing as giving your heart to your loved friends
and them giving their hearts back

animals can do this
why cant the HIGHER BEINGS humans do it as well?
humans may speak the loudest, sing the highest notes, do the smartest* things

but maybe
animals do the most sincere things, innocent straight from the heart.
they are the most beautiful creatures i have seen
apart from my beloved family.
that touched my heart.
when i look back and recollect

i dont recall many moments of being touched.
its so sad.
why is it that a retriever, a cat, a dog
can touch hearts that humans themselves cant touch??
im really sadded.

goodbye. this sad world.

2009-04-12T00:25:00.001-07:00

被爱是幸福。爱人是痛苦
不管是什么爱都是如此。。。

2009-04-11T06:04:00.000-07:00

I LIKE THIS

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
ITS VERYVERYVERYVERYVERY NICE!
T__T
http://www.gojane.com/31342-dresses-pleated-drop-tie-waist-dress.html

2009-04-11T02:27:00.000-07:00

I love dialect songs!
they are really homely,
and i love singing them! :D

2009-04-02T22:45:00.000-07:00

Test Results

Sickness Quotient: 54%
Your Sickness Quotient" of 54% is hardly cause for concern.

Detailed Diagnosis

Interpersonal Insights
You have a positive attitude towards nearly everything, which is incredibly stupid and very annoying to those around you. You hate your mother and father, your neighbors, co-workers, friends, and just about everyone else who happens to think you're a worthless boob.

Job Performance & Attitude
Your work is of such poor quality that your manager is considering replacing you with a machine that flushes. You have a deep love for your patients, which is unfortunate since you're a veterinarian.

Personality Insight
Your personal motto is "If you can’t make them think, make them wonder." Trust us- you've succeeded beyond your wildest dreams.

2009-04-01T16:59:00.000-07:00

Prejudice
Prejudice
Prejudice
Prejudice
Prejudice

Prejudice – Prejudgment
Assumption evident
Prejudice ties in with Paul’s wheel.
Paul’s wheel is about uncovering prejudice. If you connect what you just learnt, you will discover that paul’s wheel is a tool for discovering or uncovering prejudice.
- Why is this important? :
o In Semester 2 we will be doing SRQ. Situation Response.
o Where there will be a deliberately biased essay. And the writer will use all types of methods to cover his prejudice.
o Writers will NOT openly tell you that they are prejudice.
o IT IS YOUR JOB TO EXPOSE their prejudice.
o CSI in SRQ

- How prejudice is conveyed to you?
- How is prejudice hidden?
- *WHY does prejudice exists?

- Writers will say that these are…
o debating techniques
o Argumentative techniques

- YOU will recognize these as: FALLACIES

WHAT?
- Assumptions made without concrete, substantial evidence.

WHO?
WHEN?

WHERE?
- Shown in movies?
o Gattaca
o Forrest Gump
HOW?

*SPECTRA
S – Social:
- Class-prejudice:
o Poor people?
o Rich people?

P – Political:
- Political Prejudice:
o Prejudice against country?
o Prejudice against ideologies? (communism)
o Prejudice against

E – Economic: (similar to social)
- Economic?-prejudice:
o Poor looks down on the poor
o Rich looks down on the middle-class
o PASSING OF JUDGEMENT
o A tendency to be prejudiced.

C – Cultural: (similar to social)
- Culture-prejudice:
o Look down on other cultures
o Passing judgments on each others cultures
 Example: Singapore (Hybrid of Languages)
• HUH?
• WALAO
• Eh don’t like that leh.
• GOT MEH?!

T –
R –
A –

2009-03-29T22:07:00.000-07:00

gua sha
the approach that LAteacher take, is it different?
if so, how?
us there a difference in the way we disect the issue.
eg. paul's wheel, spectral
we talk about questioning evidence, questioning assumption
is that different in the way your chi cher teach you?
chi cher focus more on the chi culture, chi language.
so is there a certain point of view?
- look at the writer's perspective
cause if you are biased, you tend to defend that view more!

=> COPIED FROM YVONNE YEO :D

we are all products of the society,
we are rebels of the society.

there is a relationship between the society and you
REGARDLESS OF WHETHER U PRO SOCIETY OR GOVERNMENT! MUAHAHAHA
MASSACRES:
- KILLED MASSES!
- AKIN to holocaust! (nazi-germany)
PERCEPTION
- Chinese government wanted to downplay the issue
- not talked about in their syllabus
NOT PART OF CHINESE HISTORY
even if it is, it'll be VERY BRIEF

country submarine
- what are the cause of downplay?
by 1989, the chinese students at BEI DA
were very forward, DEMOCRACY!

"russia is alrdy having a hard time"
"other countries are progressing!!!"

SEE THE DIFFERENT WAYS OF perception
*some of the videos only are only the western perspectives*
they are using a certain language to explain
=> LANGUAGE IS NEVER NEUTRAL
=> the VERY WORD THEY USE is BIASED
"incident" "massacre"

depends on which youtue clip you download.
could have been the chinese version
or the english version... :D
WHO IS THE WRITER?
WHO's PERSPECTIVE?

many points of views, many voices,
MANY PERCEPTIONS
MANY MANY ASSUMPTIONS.

always know who is the writer
cause there is bound to be bias-ness

PERCEPTIONS
VIEWS
BOUND TO BE

2009-03-18T09:26:00.000-07:00

Conclusion of flag day:

- guys are more generous than girls! :D
- its best to be proactive!
- children are attractd by the stickers!!!
- parents usually donate :D
- I WILL DO FLAGDAY AGAIN!!!

**heehee, a hidden agenda of doing FD again would be trying to meet my suavey again! :D
of course, i will be stationing outside the heeren again! :D
to try and meet my SUAVEY AGAIN! MUAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA 8D (*oogles!*)

2009-03-18T09:10:00.000-07:00

COMPELLED TO POST POST POST POST POST!
I JUST HAVE TO POST TO TELL THE WHOLE WORLD ABT SUAVE ENCOUNTER TODAY!

:D today!
someone almost made me forget my favourite fruit!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAHHAHAH XD

ok.. today was flagday :D
metup with jianingning, nericey (nursery), shiaokeekee, shiaoweiwei and longshanshan!
diffused outside heeren with shiaokeekee, shiaoweiwei and longshanshan!
met alot of good kind generous helpful people today!
but also a fair share of the ho-hum, not so nice pple today!
(: (ok.. who am i to judge and label them the not-so-nices, ok maybe things happened. ah nvm (:)

it was quite hard to ask pple at first
but got used to it! :D hahaha XD
and went along to ask alot of people. (:
and this guy that i met totally made me add this clause to the "prospective men" list hahaha XD ok i dont have that list, but because of him! it came about! :D
and that clause is.... (DRUMROLL!) GENEROUSITY~!!!!
好事是值得等待的！
所以宝贝理想男人的故事就流到最后吧！

ok lets start with the artsy people!
they were such a riot :D haha x)
in a good way xD HAHAHAHAAHAHA
so abt 5 guys, with this "ldr of the pack"
hahha XD then the whole group came forward
quite intimidating. SO TALL
what did u expect! im only 150+!
then the ldr of the pack like moved his hand onto his ear
like zhuayang like that.
then in the end he was not zhuayang-ing!
his hand came down swiftly iwth a COIN! XD
like he stuff the coin on his ear, not IN HIS EAR so disgusting
lke ON* his ear like how u would put a pen on the ear (:
and he donated!!!
and he got all his friends to donate too! :DDDD 8DDDDD
so charming!!!!!!

but it was not much compared to SUAVEY! :D
he was more surprisey!! XD

AWWW
he was so suave! :D
good-looking
handsome
drool-worthy (:
a smile that makes u meltttttt
and had a VERYVERYVERY KIND HEART!

cause i was like "excuse me, sir/ma'am. would you like to make a donation?"
and the guy came forward and before i could bring myself to ask!
he said! YES I WILL........

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!
it almost sounded like YES I DO
*flower-eating syndrome*
*flower-eating syndrom-ing!*
I WAS SO CHARMED!!!! :D 8D 8D
8D
<333333333333333333333333333333333333

like really really shuai! :D and just SO SUAVE!
AWWWWWWWW XD then he got his friends to donate all his coins!
and he himself donated all his coins too!!! :D

(stefanie sun's 《遇见》plays softly in the background!)
*在人群中。。。他做的哪一件。。。可能在人家眼里
那么微不足道。。。那么琐碎的一件小事。。。
却让一个女生感动至今.........
“我还会碰见他吗？”*

我还会碰见他吗？
她还会再碰见他吗？

2009-03-12T03:12:00.001-07:00

Fat is the new skinny

YAY! :D

2009-03-11T17:19:00.000-07:00

maybe this is what it feels like to be in love. :D your crush :D

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHH i love this! :D *swoons*

2009-03-09T08:21:00.000-07:00

I AM NOT GOING TO PROCRASTINATE ANYMORE
NO
NO
NO!
and here i swear that i will NOT, N-O-T procrastinate anymore
and to not do that now,
adios!

2009-03-09T07:43:00.000-07:00

PEARS (:

2009-03-06T03:47:00.000-08:00

this weird feeling that upsets you skin deep.
you dont know how to describe, neither do you know how to explain it.
this feeling that only one will understand if that misfortune has fallen on you.

everyone is moving on,
cept you
everyone is improving,
cept you
everyone is happy,
cept you

people that you know,
seeing you and you seeing them
yet them pretending not to see/know/hear you
even though you waved/called out/ smile...
what an idiot i am...
its really depressing when all that happens...
people that you know, even if you know you've left them with a bad impression of self.

its a feeling like everyone hates you.
and you cannot redeem yourself. ):
beyond redemption.
saddening.

its nice to know more nice people.
nice to have known the nice people prior to knowing the present ones.
but it is hard,
hard to accept this.
that you know more nice people, and you actually like it
and the misfortune is not supposed to be LIKED.

so... what do we do?
conflicting feelings, mixed emotions
grey areas.
the world is not a mere black and white situation.
its a mesh, mash of colours, emotions of all kinds.
hard to understand, hard to grasp.
something keeps you going and you have to hold on to it.
once you lose it, it'll be hard to go on...

mixed up...
someone enlighten me?

2009-03-01T07:46:00.001-08:00

OMGOMGOMGOMG this is B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L! T_________TTTTTTTTTT

*hankering over the big dream!!!!* AHHHHHH!!!!!

Zenzeeli
SGD$117.16/- T-T
: Stride for the best in style. Two tone adjustable ankle straps accent this shoe with a rhinestone buckle at front. Lightly padded footbed. 3.5" thick heel.

it reflects a size 6 on auto on the browsing page!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A SIZE 6, ITS MEANT FOR ME!!! T-T
i'm a size 6, euro size 37 i think :D
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ANY KIND SOULS OUT THERE???? i would love it! :D

had a fabulous weekend... pretty sad on friday... sobz my weekend is over so quickly! ):

today my parents had an off day from work! :D so we watched animal planet tgther :D haha and played with hamster! :D x) HAMSTER!! :D and also my cats :D haha and all the animals (:

recovering pretty well too! :D omgomgomgogmgomgoggomgggg shoeshoeshoeshoe!!!!!!!!!

- x)

2009-02-27T04:18:00.000-08:00

whats nicer word for "piss"?

"pish?"

ok, lets just say that i am pish-ed

________________________________________________________________

yes gonggong, i posted my la learning log. i realised that i can type without looking at the keyboard. paying attention in class... listening listening... thinking thinking... and doing a whole lot of thinking....

the first term is almost over... i should have gotten used to it by now eh?

the answer is NO ):

big flat no.

i dunno leh.

its still like very sensitive to me.

its hard to understand.

nvm. who will understand?

i hope nobody will get to understand it.

de javu here

de javu that

sometimes i feel so detached ):

but still im growing fond of the new pple around me.

yangjie jingying jianing (laobanniang), ngiammie, weiwei, kaiyun

AIYAH ALOT LA.

but it still feels wierd deep down,

like some eons old pain hurting u from like the pits of your heart?

i find solace from home,

fridays, they're good (:

life, probably not that jolly.

people hear about the news

they are like shocked.

i cant be bothered anymore.

but it just feels wierd

i'm 16...

going on 16.

im not ready

sort of like in 4 yrs to come,

you're old and you carry on the real world issues problems.

uni, jc, degrees, jobs, money, taxes, money,money....

but it'll be like 1 yr late for me.

means my loved ones have to provide 1 extra yr for me.

they say that they dont really don mind

but i noe they mind deep down

sadded, disappointed,

for me its a mishmash of emotions

i dont know how to put it

i dont know i dont know.

now block tests are coming,

i want to do well

I WANT TO DO DARN WELL

like suddenly im shooting to get into prize presentation?

they do not have good-progress award.

today assembly, was quite unstable at some points.

managed to swallow them back

this kind of thing. it hurts more than skin deep.

i dont know

i really dont know.

my prep really sucks and i handed it in

i feel like !#*&^%#@%^&^* now ):

detached

and

a tad depressed.

1 life. live it

i shall try to forget these troubles...

and.

bye.

2009-02-26T21:21:00.000-08:00

"An Idle Mind is the Devil's Workshop"

moral of the story: STAY PRODUCTIVE!!!

_____________________________________________________
Social unrest
- widespread
- snowballs

People wont be driven into a corner (analogy of a cornered rat) with the economic downturn during these hard times. Loss of jobs, loss of income, risen poverty rates will lead to a rise in vices, crime rates

The Biblical Story of Creation
Define TENSION: conflict of values/ interest (opposite directions? physics :D)
What was the tension between the Creator (the lord god) and the creations (Adam & Eve)
- Agreements/ Set of rules to which A & E were forced to abide despite their dislike.

Link between BSOC and FRANKENSTEIN
the creature can be compared to A & E.
Victor Frankenstein was th
Creations in both stories rebelled against their creator, causing much harm and damage to both parties and others.
---- becos the creations thought that they were superior/ sense of freewill (had the right to do certain things in order to achieve what they want.)
---- creations were sentimental and had emotions.
---- greed: lust for knowledge

Their punishments:

*A & E were expelled out of the garden of eden

* Humans were cursed:
--- hard labour
--- pains of childbirth
--- there was sin in the world
Kane and Able situation: Kane murders Able due to jealousy. Used as a biblical reference.
(table forms are user-friendly/ easy to understand)

Possible similarities (Frankenstein / Prometheus / BSOC):
- man (creature) = created vs evolution
- thief: get thigns that do not belong to them
- dont do things that you are not supposed to do
- RETRIBUTION: pay for what you did
- Law & Order (Rules... rules... rules...)
- Tangible balance: things come full circle/ what comes around goes around?

SIMILARITIES ARE ALL GENERALISATION: cannot draw conclusion from general
(ITS A FALLACY!!!!!)
Prometheus / BSOC / Frankenstein:
see patterns!
- environment
- crime / conflict?
- punishment
- meaning / concept behind it!

MAN's 1st sin -VS- Frankenstein
- knowledge: dangerous and potentially fatal

Is frankenstein's desire for knowledge, satisfied?

.... blahblahblah no time to type in D: BAH!

SYMBOLS:
Light - Frankenstein, the creature found out from the still-smouldering flame thatl light can help him, give him light admidst the dark nights. However, it can als0 hurt him when he touches it.
(light represents-> knowledge, enlightenment, hope)

"Adam " who was the first man in the Garden of Eden

symbols: represent abstract concepts.

checkout: the modern prometheus painting by theodor von something.... :D

reminder: to talk abt greed
face the front when presenting! (let the audience see your pretty faces! :D)

LA Lesson :D

2009-02-18T16:59:00.000-08:00

you need to provide an overview in your proposal.
to orientate your reading.
such as background, feel free to create your own sub-headings.

AIMS & OBJECTIVES:
- don't lump it together with background
eg. children are the future of the nation blablabla. (THIS IS NOT AN AIM)

MAKE YOUR PROPOSAL READER-FRIENDLY

- make the format very accessible

- user-friendly

- all these above will show that you are organised

; you musn't make your reader read through the whole thing painstakingly D:

*Note:

- Language are not perfect in proposals (take note of that)

- Prevent overcommitment (JUST GET IT DONE AND OVER WITH IT!)

2009-02-17T23:10:00.000-08:00

jiejie came to my house today! :D
woots! although i wasnt feeling well and was locked out of the house for 1/2 hour
:D i feel much better after her visit!
:D she bought me a bottle of Ascience deep nourish shampoo

haha washed my hair
then she insisted that i press/squeeze dry my hair
to prevent split ends from the rubbing dry action :D
haha (:and she went crazy on my comp buying stuff on9
i love her loads...
actually bot me 9 items on the net!
2 small pouches that can be used as pencil boxes

What if i have a lot of money?
1st thing i'll do: give my parents good life (:
2nd thing: i'll buy an abundance of materials to make my handicraft personally as a gift for my loved ones (family, friends and all (:)
i'll put about 1/2 of it in a savings acc to make it grow haha and then i'll consider 10% - 15% for charityi wont see this as being selfish buti dont want to put a good life for my loved ones for the sake of charityas in... yes, we should help the needy..but how to say?i guess im just abit selfish D:BAH nvm (: maybe 15-20% then

i really want to go shopping....haha, the most feministic act so far is it?:D JJ cant bring me out cause she has to work overseas again.today was a suprise visit haha x)
and i was throwing a hissy fit in the 1/2 hours i waited outside.
HAIZ....i must really look like a psycho there beside the road then haha (:

things that i hope to get:
- a pair of dark coloured long jeans (idealistically 2 pairs (: hopefully*)
- 2 pairs of shorts! :D any shorts will do. 出门裤！
- a pair of 娃娃鞋
- light coloured shirts? :D abt 3?
- singlets! :D

haiz... and if i can afford to treat myself... an addidas jacket with gold stripes?(:
haha im not the chio type but i really like the golden-striped addidas jacket!

it must cost a bomb! D: bah...
anyone knows any good places to buy good but affordable clothings?
those as described above?
clue me in!

jiejie thanks alot for always buying me stuff and handing down your marvellous clothesbut i feel really bad taking them all the time!i owe you big time sister! :D*hugshugshugshugs!!*
i feel dumb... i cant dress myself up haiz..haha but i seem to have no prob helping people select stuff...BAH.i think my self-esteem is a negative..some one pump up my self-esteem please???haha my hair feels nice now haha x) feels really comfy!! :D- shampoo - conditioning - squeeze/press dry + towel wrap!feels really good now! :Dmy flu is still not getting any better... ):headaches, earblock DEAFNESS! and i realized that my eye sight has deteoriated )::D anyway hugs to jiejie! X)
happy stuff that happened today:- janice that popped by my class!~- seeing liqi jinjin naijing during reces!- jingyi my take medication partner!- jiejie's surprise visit
on a happier note! :Dbyebye! :D

feelings

2009-02-16T18:20:00.000-08:00

i feel hurt, angry and sad.

WHY?

im disapointed that so many people have the tendency to judge things by its cover.
Well, im not perfect, i use to do that too. but i can tell u for sure
i DO NOT DO THAT ANYMORE

so what if you have to stay back for another 365 days?
must you immediately start giving those kind of LOOKS*
that are just so OBVIOUS in saying:
- "oh... bad kid"
- "oh... rebellions"
- "oh... sigh, another social degenerate"

IM SERIOUSLY pissed at this. @ least i know that im putting everything back into balance
YES, block out unecessary commentary\critique.
EASIER SAID THAN DONE
put yourself in my own shoes and try to understand.
i dont think that you'd even bother.
your lack of empathy and understanding is seriously driving me up the wall
i dont wish to have a spat with you
but when i get angry i will really SPAT YOU.

i was dozing off not because i was just bored or whatever, i didnt even sleep late.
CAN U JUST UNDERSTAND
im having flu, slight fever and a blocked nose.
i cant smell at all, i cant even hear things clearly
and the medication is drowsy.

stop giving me those dirty looks.
who noes what i might do to you.
well i know very clearly what i'll do
but that is just when you cross the line
for now, where u still hadnt yet pushed the limit of my patience
i shall just tolerate you.
and when you cross the line
you will jolly well know for yourself that you deserve everybit of shet that goes to you.
what comes around goes around
GET IT?

2009-02-08T07:33:00.001-08:00

old habits friggin die hard
well,
at least my friggin old habit of procrastinating is tAKING VERY LONG TO DIE

2009-02-08T03:09:00.000-08:00

《你是我的眼》

。。。

如果我能看得

见就能轻易的分辨白天黑夜

就能准确的在人群中

牵住你的手

。

如果我能看得见

就能驾车带你到处遨游

就能惊喜的从背后

给你一个拥抱

。

如果我能看得见

生命也许完全不同

可能我想要的

我喜欢的

我爱的都不一样

。

眼前的黑不是黑

你说的白是什么白

人们说的天空蓝

是我记忆中那团白云

背后的蓝天

。

我望向你的脸

却只能看见一片虚无

是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘

忘了掀开

。

你是我的眼

带我领略四季的变换

你是我的眼

带我穿越拥挤的人潮

你是我的眼

带我阅读浩瀚的书海

因为你是我的眼

让我看见这世界就在我眼前

。

眼前的黑不是黑

你说的白是什么白

人们说的天空蓝

是我记忆中那团白云

背后的蓝天

。

我望向你的脸

却只能看见一片虚无

是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘

忘了掀开

。

你是我的眼

带我领略四季的变换

你是我的眼

带我穿越拥挤的人潮

你是我的眼

带我阅读浩瀚的书海

因为你是我的眼

让我看见这世界就在我眼前

。。。

repeatedly listened to this song (: its meaningful haha (: appreciate the fact that i can see (:

discovering more and more linyoujia's songs haha (:

我爱的人

他也有了爱人

从他们的眼神

说明了我不可能

。。。

(: who wrote all these songs! :D

its getting me so addicted! XD

and yoga's voice is special :)

well everyone is special! :D

okay, back to homework (:

i predict not much sleep tonight either (:

2009-02-07T20:51:00.001-08:00

there should be 48 hours a day.

5 weekdays a week

3 days a weekEND

2 days in a weekend

JUST ISNT ENOUGH!

dont u agree?

2009-02-04T06:16:00.000-08:00

BEING PISSED HAS JUST TAKEN A WHOLE NEW MEANING

"u've" just pushed my boundaries of being pissed

DONT COME BACK TO ME WITH YOUR TAIL BETWEEN YOUR LEGS FOR HELP.

I DONT FRIGGIN CARE TO HELP

UNAPPRECIATIVE PEOPLE

WHO DOESNT UNDERSTAND

KINDNESS

WHY THE ELL' SHOULD I WASTE MY TIME HELPING U!

U BLOODY PISSED ME OFF

2009-01-31T23:38:00.000-08:00

im sadded sia! ): so much homework to do!

SERIOUSLY
HOMEWORK IS A PAIN.
ok no... not really
i dunno why i really like doing math and chem worksheets :D
big change from last year... (:

honestly... its not the homework "PAIN"
that is killing me now... its more like the PAIN that comes every month
WTH... i should just keep on eating the medicine that messes it up and keeps it away for half a year? ): SERIOUSLY CRAMPING LIKE MADDDDDD D: T___T BOOHOOOOO

hen tong leh! thank god for panadol menstrual... ): but i just ate it leh! then the effects havent come yet. it STILLL HURTS

-played word challenge on facebook. jumped from mime to ringmaster! woots! <3
- played the MS KANG GAME! :D in <3 with it. but stuck at some lvls. TnT
- feeling a BIG sense of accomplishment cos i motivated myself to read through my atomic structure notes! :D olay!:D then i annotated and drew lots of pics again hahaha ;D haha okae. things to do for monday: bring my annotated atomic notes and show jessica! :D and also deliver chrissy's chem tb as well. its been sitting with me since the hols.. thankyou chrissy! :D <3 *grateful!*

people say my notes very funny, some say its messy, some say its like im playing liddat!
OK GET UR PEN/BOOK/PAPER!

HUICI MINGYAN coming! :D

-"notes are meant to be funny

at least, thats for me

you laugh at the crazy story,

and the deal is:

you remember the stuff :D"-

ok, now i really love "mugging" i wont say mugging, i would say discovering knowledge :D hahah (: i love to acquire knowledge! :D ESP big cat diary on nat geo wild:D. reallyreally like it! :D

haha friday was a long day. well... i made it long for myself. -.- there was SO MUCH leftovver food, hahah the whole plastic bag of pastries mr chia bot. left quite UNEATEN. so i did my zuowen from cme lesson to chinese lesson (last period) all the way to 5+ omg. thats really fast rite. im sad that laoshi is injured ): we wont be seeing her for at least half a month i guess. ): get well soon! i miss chinese lesson! :D

omg... getting more and more pain......

u noe those kind of pain? that zhenzhentong.. zhenzhenlai..

): then u will shiver with cold that kind......

WAHPIANG EH. hentongarh..........................................

haha okay. talk abt last friday again. then i went pe dept cant find any chers there already... so i tried calling mrchia. no body answered -- then i went back to class ask shiao kee for ideas. she tell me bringhome the food. NO! NONONONNOOO!!! XD i bring back only waste sia. hahah so... i figured out that the girlguides were still having their cca, then zhaoqi, qinyan,YEN MYMYMYMYMYMYY stays at the boarding school. which means i can tuo them to help me bring it to mrchia. :D YAY! hahah after i solved that problem, another came along. BOX OF LOVE LETTERS, not that qingshu la, the the the eggrolls? qidanjuan (: cny goodies, left half a box.

SO! i went outside to throw some rubbish, then i saw huier and xiaoen sitting in a circle outside with shiaowei the girlguides in orange shirts. juniors i guess haha? :D

haha then xiaoen waves to me said hi haha, then i threw away my rubbish and went back class. then i tot of something, i cant give huier they all the love letters! :D

then i went out with the box and gave it to huier, then everyone laugh -- omg. whywhywhy? and huier was desperately trying to get rid of me. hahaha.. xD i found out later on the bus why all of them laugh. -.- i was sitting with charmaine, a girlguide haha then nearing bishan that time, i tot she needed the bell and was getting off haha and asked her if she needed the bell and whether i need to throw myself out of my seat hahahahah. then no need then we started conversing. haha then she tell me why everyone laugh at me that time. haha seems like their Senior + role models were telling them not to snack on too much cny goodies and what an irony that i stuck the box of love letters right in their role models face hahaha hhahahaha HAHAHAHAHAHAH.....

the i got off the bus, haha (:

KAKAY! i didnt see u on 156 D: will keep my eyes PEELED next time wahahaha (:

ohya, we continued watching frankenstein during la lesson. HAIZ im such a useless IT rep. ): so helpless. BAH STUPID MACHINES ): i PRESSED VIDEO BUTTON, then set the top player to L1, then got one lor! then suddenly disappear, this msg: "no input signal from rgb 1" ):

walao.... then restarted restarted restarted the whole thing. -.- i was so frustrated. haha then mr tan said relac relac. haha then later went to get mr ng from the it room haha. he JUST CAME IN and pressed the VIDEO button with his magic finger......

SO MR MACHINE. U GOT SOME PROBLEM WITH MY FINGER IS IT!

-- stupid machine. i shall poke it with a pen to turn it on next time. since it doesnt like my finger. ): haha sway suay bah (:

went home played the ms kang game, and slept

YAY!

my weekend is over just like that...

ohwells... time flies. it really does...

i shall get my act together!

JIAYOU! gonna finish my chemn ws 5 and 6! :D YIPPE!

and later continue with the rest hahaha okae

STILL VERY PAIN D:

i mean "that" pain.

oh ya.

thankyou yangjie laogong for the nutella! :DX)X)X)X)X)X)

and byebye blog! (:

homework time! (:

2009-01-18T09:10:00.000-08:00

my brother brought me to the zoo today. well i requested to go to the zoo. since he can get staff discount benefits there, he brought me there. Well, my bro doesnt work at the zoo. haha

Im feeling abit sad after i came back ): i feel cheated of my money.

WHAT DO U THINK OF WHEN YOUR HEAR THE WORD : CHEETAH?

WHAT DO U THINK OF WHEN YOU HEAR AUSTRALIAN OUTBACK KANGAROO??

well, im not sure what you would think of

but im pretty sure it'll be something like this:

SPRINTING @ HIGH SPEED for their prey

lounging low spying on their prey

Happy hopping creatures

with kiddies in their pouches (:

HOWEVER.

TODAY, the tigers, WERE SLACKING, they were hiding from the strong sun, hiding under the shade of the tree. and the cheetahs were sleeping* in the shade. THE WHITE TIGERS were yawning at the screaming children visitors. THE POLAR BEAR CAME OUT OF WATER AND practically planted itself in front of the air conditioner in its enclosure. the wolf was hiding deep into the trees ): THE ONLY NICE PICTURE I THINK I TOOK TODAY

WAS THE PICTURES OF THE SPONTANEOUS OTTERS> they are a noisy bunch ,hahahaha making lots of noises, tried to capture them in action swimming in water. (: but failed ):

Taking in the MOMENT on camera is really hard and mostly chance? LIKE, u dont always gets the spirit of the moment everytime. ): the otters were extremely sporting :D and the giant tortoise stood itself at the gate and started to get near to me. it got real near to me, i went to touch it. secretly xD its head feels nice (: rather dryish, scalish, hahahah but the tortoise was sporting (: then while i was enjoying this intimate human-animal moment, a child had to scream to their papa and mama and all the tourists swarmed towardss the giant tortoise.

so, i slid out of the crowd and looked at my friend from afar, my friend edged itself away from the gate and walked* far from the gate, deep into the enclosure. Bye my friend (: my fellow vegetarian friend haha (:

IM SAD ): i think im anti-zoo already. I THINK IM BETTER OFF PAYING FOR MY NAT GEO WILD CABLE VISION!!! ): theres this show on sundays called cheetah blood brother. MY GOD, thats the kind u want to see. haiz. cant blame the zoo though. if i could devise a whole new zoo system i would. cos the animals are so tame, you dont get intimate with nature anymore leh. more like seeing the tamed and tired animals. i rather rob the zoo and set them all free )':

they are like prisoners. robbed of their benxing, and being forcefully tamed ): i wanted to walk myself right into the white tigers den. HAIZ of course. I DIDNT.

something that i heard on NAT GEO WILD today:

"i hope that one day humans can learn to coexist alongside animals peacefully"

Its a film about this indian man/scientist/ environmentalist? going after the issues of indian wolves in india, dying out. their numbers even less than white tigers.

I FEEL SO USELESS! ): what the ell' can i do to help?

i have no idea )':

*says bye with a broken heart*

2009-01-16T20:01:00.000-08:00

Today.

I am feeling happy (:

1st - its a friday!

2nd- im alive!

3rd- i helped a stranger yesterday!

:D lets start with the stranger

i was on my way to popular yesterday going to check out on some math assesment books :D then i was on the train, and a woman came in, i sort of immediately identified that she is pregnant then i gave up my seat for her, cos she was standing without holding on to any support and trying to untangle her ipod earphone wire, i was afraid that she might fall (:

Then after a while the train quite crowded then i stand quite near her, then she was asking me, how u noe i pregnant, then i was like, "oh, my aunt also like your belly size liddat" aiya something like that. then she smile lor (: actually i was happy that i gave up my seat for her, cos the train jerked later, which means she migght have fallen. I think she is in her 2nd trimester, most likely 4months le :)

so yay to that!

And now now to start with happiness of a friday. Week 2 was kind of screwed ): sort of screwish! But i really enjoyed PE lessons, Math lessons, Physics lessons. I feel kind of happy, cos i finally start to straighten out my one big headache with math, physics and chemistry!

I'm sort of addicted to browsing blogshops, and interesting to look at the blacklisted stories! And i went to lavender for a payment meetup to pay for my 2 pg bags! :D My new year clothes are coming on 21st jan, wheee~

parade around with new clothes.

highly unlikely :)

Im still pondering about OBS again. My mom says its a waste of time and total crap. Cause i came back after it last year with horrible sandfly bites. Correct that, INCORRIGIBLE sandfly bites.

Ok, its abit late to reminisce about OBS, but i really huixiangqi.

- Stupid wetwetwet obs, all the rain. BAH.

- Heavy tents

- AND ALL THE ANT BITES ):

why the ants all bite me!

and not to mosquitoes.

- scary rowboat ride (i seriously thought im going to die there)

and alot hahaha (:
on a darker note ): i feel that my weekend is going to be consumed by work work work and more work. haiz. but tomorrow im going to the zoo! :D yay!!! (:
SINGAPORE ZOO HERE I COME MUAHAHAAHA

and this weekend is going to pass in a flash.. confirmed not going to go obs again liao (: what shall happen to me in week9? :D

lets leave it to fate
hahaha and byebye :)

2008-12-30T23:27:00.000-08:00

I FOUND IT TOO SAYANG (可惜) to just X this conversation out with cynthia.
Partly to commemorate my imagination! :D HAHAHAH Kudos to cynthia for putting up with me! XD (u noe she sat with me for a year, YES THATS A YEAR )

WARNING: it is obscenely long due to my luosuo-ness? :D & millions of thanks for personal shopper, tasteful CYNTHIA for helping me with my online loots! :D

请做好心理准备。。。
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Catmad says:
im a parent!
Catmad says:
O.O!
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
=.=
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
who's the OTHER parent?
Catmad says:
oh
Catmad says:
its cynthia!
Catmad says:
xD
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
T________________________T
Catmad says:
*kicks up kinky leg and dances around*
Catmad says:
*holds a bucket under cynthia's face to contain her sodium chloride filled tears! ( wat a kind act! )*
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
T________________________________________________________T
Catmad says:
*brings cynthia to the reservoir*
Catmad says:
*such an eco-friendly act!*
Catmad says:
xD
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
T____________________________________________________________________________________T
Catmad says:
works out million dollar invention of the TEAR DIAPER!
Catmad says:
with mamypoko diapers cooperation
Catmad says:
*recives free set of tear diaper*
Catmad says:
* help put it on cynthia*
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
-cynthia has left this ridiculous conversation.
Catmad says:
*huici jumps into comp and pulls cynthia back *
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
-Catmad continues to talk to herself
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
- they struggle for a few hours.
Catmad says:
- with cynthia's tear diaper
Catmad says:
Catmad says:
*in the menawhile*
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
-they tear the tear diaper into little pieces
Catmad says:
*goes into collaberation with whisper*
Catmad says:
*and comes out with the tear pad!*
Catmad says:
*so now even girls Crying their eyes after heartbreak can look fashionable*
Catmad says:
* complete with the chic-est hot pink floral prints *
Catmad says:
*available at all major stores*
Catmad says:
*so get yours today now!*
Catmad says:
*oops, dont mean to say that you'll break up*
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
- ultra absorbent, so you can cry all day and all night!
Catmad says:
*YES! new and improved with double cotton lining*
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
cynthia says: you very bored is it? nothing to do is it?
Catmad says:
*now, laden full of nutrient rich cream to reduce eye bags after tearing*
Catmad says:
*now, available for men*
Catmad says:
*complete with the manliest, G2,000,000 black sheen*
Catmad says:
catmad says: u noe, we've got a whole new business concept in the works!
Catmad says:
*the reinvention of the TEAR PAD*
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
cynthia says: yeah right.
Catmad says:
*"pissing around is very chanelllll" says karlaa lagarfeld*
Catmad says:
"when i mean ISNT very chanelll*
Catmad says:
*Karlaa lagarfeld takes over major designer role*
Catmad says:
*produces luxury line of the tear pad*
Catmad says:
*new billboard poster with1938 picture of lovely Mademoiselle grabrielle coco chanellll wearing photoshoped [lagar designed] tear pad goes onto the big billboards of paris*
Catmad says:
*hung on the tower, a whole new 300 metres full colour billboard print*
Catmad says:
* hot celebrity news: Major tennis star seen offering tear pads to opponent who lost and is Crying *
cynthia says:
-huici gets carried away and doesnt realise cynthia has long left to her pink hello panda beckoning to her
Catmad says:
- cynthia! this is a whole new million dollar concept!
Catmad says:
- come join me!
Catmad says:
*goes into collaboration with Gussi*
cynthia says:
cynthia says: wow the strawberry filling just spilled out!
cynthia says:
cynthia continues: and it is ultra crispy!
Catmad says:
*produces fire alarm shades, big fly gussi sades with hidden tear pads*
Catmad says:
-catmad: holds out hand to have a share of strawberry pie too!
cynthia says:
cynthia says: OOh and i got the panda with shades and an umbrealla!!
cynthia says:
cynthia : looks insulted. it is not a strawberry pie!
cynthia says:
it is hello panda with strawberry filling!!
Catmad says:
*YES! tear pad inc produces own company fan line of TEAR PAD UMBRELLA!*
cynthia says:
*groans.
Catmad says:
- hello panda!
Catmad says:
*say goodby to friends saying "hello panda" to you*
Catmad says:
*with the new any eye bag tear pad!*
Catmad says:
*with moisturising ingredients to give you the perfect supple eyes*
Catmad says:
*enough to melt HIS heart over and over again *
Catmad says:
*so come get yours now today, in preparation for a sudden eye bag attack*
Catmad says:
*Available at all major stores*
Catmad says:
*New "Luxuire" luxury tear pad only exclusively availabe at TheCynthiaSuitE(sweet) shoppe *
Catmad says:
WELCOME TO THE GRAND LAUNCH of
Catmad says:
TheCynthiaSuitE(sweet) shoppe
Catmad says:
--------------------&&--------------------------
Catmad says:
[cynthia! pls cut the ribbon with golden scissors! to grace the grand opening!]
cynthia says:
=.= =.= .=.=.=.=.=.=.=..=.=.=.=.=.
cynthia says:
Catmad says:
\ / [this is the blade of the scissors]
0 [this is the screw on the scissors]
../ \... [this is the handles of the scissors]
cynthia says:
it looks nothing like a scissors.
cynthia says:
Catmad says:
scissors proudly sponsored by TearPadInc
Catmad says:
T_______T
Catmad says:
HAHAH
cynthia says:
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Catmad says:
just CUT IT!
Catmad says:
------------&&------------- [the ribbon]
Catmad writes:

cynthia says:
it looks like someone scribbled on msn.
Catmad says:
cynthia! u still there?! the tear pad thing ??????????????
Catmad says:
HAHA
cynthia says:
oh WAIT. someone DID scribble on msn.
cynthia says:
dui lor.
Catmad says:
*cynthia graces the opening of TheCynthiaSuite(sweet) shoppe*
cynthia says:
yue shuo yue li pu
Catmad says:
HAHAHAHHAHHA
cynthia says:
*faints.
Catmad says:
*shop sells exclusive pads*
Catmad says:
*ranging from monthly needs to heartbreak needs*
Catmad says:
*so come get yours today for either needs!*
cynthia says:
havent finished ar!!
Catmad says:
HAVENT!
Catmad says:
i stil thinking opening branch leh!
cynthia says:
lao tian ye jiu ming arr
Catmad says:
HAHAHHA
Catmad says:
i feel like copying this entire conversation onto a word doc. to keep it
Catmad says:
or maybe can i upload with permission the tear pad parts to my blog for all to enjoy!
Catmad says:
ITS SUCH A PITY TO JUST CROSS THIS WINDOW OUT
Catmad says:
our million dollar idea!
cynthia says:
MY EXACT sentients.,
cynthia says:
*sentiments
Catmad says:
ok
Catmad says:
can we bothcopy onto both our blogs?
Catmad says:
cynthia says:
the blog title shall be: the stress NY girls face: Is it TOO big!?
Catmad says:
*Tear Pad [exclusive best friends day edition]*
Catmad says:
*the master hUiic shoots commercial*
Catmad says:
*bestie leaves gift in bestie's room*
Catmad says:
*a gift of the exclusive best friend day edition*
Catmad says:
*TEAR PAD! - with a note*
Catmad says:
*u can alway borrow my shoulder for an ultra absorbent tear pad*
Catmad says:
*well... what are best friends for*
Catmad says:
- CRITICALLY ACCLAIMED, commercial
Catmad says:
gets nominated into the Ooshcar Film/ CF awards
Catmad says:
*Works out another commercial. for exclusive Valentine's day tear pad edition*
Catmad says:
*girl gives guy a box of tear pad the loveliest valentine day exclusive edition*
cynthia says:
you know you can save this conversation and bring it for an interview at whispers?
Catmad says:
*that is complete in G2000 men black*
Catmad says:
- Really? would they want it?
Catmad says:
- maybe i should
Catmad says:
*with a note saying: *
Catmad says:
*i feel so safe with you. just like how a whisper pad is to me*
Catmad says:
*i can be myself so comfortably with you*
Catmad says:
*happy valentine's day*
Catmad says:
*guy very GANDONG*
Catmad says:
*tears*
Catmad says:
*open packaging to find*
cynthia says:
interviewer: uh..security?
cynthia says:
SECURIZTY!
cynthia says:
DA BOMB!
Catmad says:
*each individual pad casing with iloveyou*
Catmad says:
- SCARCE BLUES!
Catmad says:
- da is nonono bomb in my pads
Catmad says:
- I told u no BOMB! keep off keep off!
Catmad says:
- hey big guy, i said HAnds off my pads!
Catmad says:
*big guy is big, hard on the outside, but actually pretty much a softie*
Catmad says:
*big guy cries! : no body had scolded me b4! only mah' mama!*
Catmad says:
*hUiic feels sorry, apologies and helps to put on a pair of tear pad on bigguy*
Catmad says:
*bigguy feels very GANDONG*
Catmad says:
*bigguy says: uh'noe mah' mama*
cynthia says:
are you um, developing a story on msn??
Catmad says:
*this feels like how mah' mama feels to me, so warm and caring! ooh mahmah, immah buying this whole set of tear pad*
Catmad says:
*LIGHT BULB LIGHTS UP! new CF idea: RELEASE SPECIAL mamah day's edition*
Catmad says:
*bigguy feels gandong, joins security team in TearPadInc*
Catmad says:
*becomes head of security*
Catmad says:
TearPadInc becomes a global success phenomenon
Catmad says:
founder hUiic and cYnnthiiaaaaa grows old
Catmad says:
ann dedicate their 15 figure long fortune to charity
Catmad says:
and the needy for the world
Catmad says:
collaborates with REedCross
Catmad says:
launches campaign of, "TearPad cares for the world"
Catmad says:
- lending a ear and a tearpad for the needy to find solace and hope
Catmad says:
- be like a caring tear pad today! and donate generously to Reedcross
Catmad says:
Global language association officialises the word Tearpad
Catmad says:
it now also carries a meaning: to give comfort, care, concern, security, to protect.
Catmad says:
--- so.... BE A TEARPAD TODAY!
Catmad says:
Catmad says:
CYNTHIA! u still dere?
Catmad says:
lets consider doing a tearpad sequel as well
Catmad says:
cynthiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa u STIL DERE!???
cynthia says:
um
cynthia says:
im busy copying everything you say and pasting
cynthia says:
yeah
cynthia says:
so kind of busy
cynthia says:
cause you talk a lot.
Catmad says:
HAHA!
Catmad says:
OKAE! u;'re really going to publish it?!??!!?!?!?!?!?
Catmad says:
See cynthia!
Catmad says:
u're my muse
Catmad says:
wukequn ?????????? ????????????
cynthia says:
ohmygosh can you get ANY lamer.
Catmad says:
Tearpad ???????????? ??????????????????
Catmad says:
sing to the tune of ????????
Catmad says:
cnythia!
Catmad says:
shall i kuso weinixieshi tearpad exlcusive edition?
cynthia says:
uh, NO??
Catmad says:
tearpad 是一种好事
我开始全身十分舒适
tearpad 就像是爱人
我开始连自己都不是
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是送你tearpad。。。
Catmad says:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LSyLK_iT5tA sing to the tune of this link
Catmad says:
送你tearpad送你爱情
cynthia says:
haha
cynthia says:
hui tan gang qin de nan sheng hao shuai oo
Catmad says:
为你设计为你装置
为你做不可能的事
为你我学会设计tearpad
为你失去理智（my partner cynthia agrees with this）
为你设计为你装置
为你所不可能的事
为你设计所有安全感的tearpad。。。。
我忘了说最美的是它（tearpad）的意思
cynthia says:
hha
cynthia says:
you know it doesnt really match
Catmad says:
tearpad 是一种好事
你的舒适是唯一宗旨
tearpad是一种本事
我在你心里什么位子
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你设计tearpad。。。
Catmad says:
HAHA
Catmad says:
cynthia wil have to do the improvisation!
Catmad says:
QUITE MATCH WAD!
Catmad says:
XD
Catmad says:
school reopen come to me I SING FOR U
Catmad says:
xD
cynthia says:
kay!!
Catmad says:
DEAL OR NO DEAL!
Catmad says:
Catmad says:
*no hunk though, got tearpad
Catmad says:
cynthia! Are you really putting ALL THAT ON UR BLOG?
Catmad says:
wukequn 越爱越难过，我越写越离谱

Kudos to the original song and singer

:D and sorry for my immense LAMENESS!

buy me a wheelchair next time will you

"and wheelchair of the year goes to..."

OK is it bad to joke about wheelchairs!

sorry! ):

2008-12-29T03:28:00.001-08:00

HIHIHIHI ALL! :D

im in high spirits today! XD

TODAY! i spent almost half of my day at the ICA! :D
to finally MAKE MY IC! :D haha i hear as if yangchenlin from buliangxiaohua in my head saying: HUHU!!! (: yay and thats a load of my to-do list. I CUT MY hair already, become mushroom head le. :D but this time not so mushroom, got layer abit xD i tell u layers dont work for me! :D COS they will anyhow qiao one -- haha so i learnt my lesson, layer ABIT only (:

OH MAN AND I WENT ALONE
TOTALLY ALONE OK
BOOHOOOOO )::::::
HAHAHAA but it was fun

took a decent IC photo. OH MAN. i hate taking photos -- take a photo of me only if u had BLINDING flashlight, expose me to OVEREXPOSURE of flash! to blind out my zit attack haha and my braces. HAHAAH but this photo still quite ok!

my queue number was B604! :D i waited from B400+ till my number! :D HAHAHA a child kept on playing with my short hair and tod her mom that her hair and my hair same shortness haha quite cute, pretended to fall asleep so she can fangxin de play. haha children should have fun mah! :D then this little boy keep crawling under the chairs. (: played abt 20 rounds of EASY lvl sudoku on my phone and i saw A-L-O-T ALOT of 15yr olds! :D and parents with children, babies in their arms. haha registrar of birth and death. if i were to remake the commercials. i think i would make a slogan like,

"share the joy of your dearest newborn

come on down and share with us the name of your bundle of joy

for registration of newborns,

please proceed to the auto ticketing machine

for a queue ticket

then proceed to the respective counter range as stated

to await your turn @ the counter

(:"

haha, i always give my respect to the custom officers, airport, checkpoints, shipyards, cargo exchange. They have such a BIG responsibility. (: i love the smell of the building, i dunno why! just smells nice! XD make me happy, the smell of AUTHORITY! :D honestly i think they were very fast, cos compared to other's experiences who otld me they waited 2-3 hours, i waiting like 1 1/2 close to 2 ? haha nvm, its worth the wait. :D and the lady at the counter, shes so

NICE! :D i was so nervous, i said"hi ma'am! its my first time registering" haha shes like tickled, like OF COURSE IDIOT! first time ma! XD hahhhahahahaha then i told her i dont like my picture. (: then she say 30 yrs old have to update ic so can change a nice picture then. I SWEAR i going to take the picture with professional make up i mean the CONCEALERS, for my wrinkles, zits, age spots -.- i really got age spots u'know., if u look closer. :D

THEN haha i reshuffled a whole new on-the-go playlist on my poddie! :D then i listened to alot of songs, haahaha all the lovely love songs! :D x) with no lack of meijiuges (:

hah so i left the place @ abt 4+ made my way to the mrt, took the train from lavender to cityhall then changed to north south line. hahaha THEN! this guy was so funny. the carriage is like FULL? actually NOT, just that people are UNWILLING TO MOVE IN to the between the carriage places. -- damnit like 那边有鬼meh，不可以移进去meh！

then got this malay guy, he so funny, with his friends then they kept squeezing in! then his fren b ag sort of stuck to my bag. then i was SANDWICHED between an aunty and THE BAG -- WLAO.but i was stuck onto a genuineYSL suede bag haha as bragged by the guy. then train moved on to next stop dhoby ghaut, i "excuse me!"-ed all the way into the Between-the-carriage place. then the malay guy and his 2 friends made their way in also. the alot of people flocked in! U SEE, becos of us, people save time that they can board the TRAIN! as in no need to wait for the nex train sia! WLAO, MOVE IN PEOPLE!

then! :D BECOS OF INCONSIDERTE PPLE wbo refused to move in, this uncle's bag or rather arm got stuck in the closing doors, of course, the door opened again.

then the announcement was like "doors are closing BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP"

FUNNY STUFF "THE GUY" SAID #1

then THE GUY said "doors are closing, for the third fkin time, please get your ass onto the train" then i laughed, as in, i was honestly tickled la! :D really funny mah, then his friend stare at me -- wlao. IT WAS GENUINELY FUNNY. then their conversation so funny. -- then THE GUY i dont think he singaporean, haha, he was saying

FUNNY STUFF "THE GUY" SAID #2

"you know how the lavatory, the toilet are located in the middle of the sections of the plane?"

friend "yah/ duh"

"so i always thought that the connection of the carriages was a toilet, like u see i tot can open and got toilet"

HAHAHAHAHHAAHAAHAHAHA WDV IT was funny the way he said it.

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHA

u noe like betwen the carriages got this shaky place, then if u look closly like got 2 boards total on each side of ONE carriage? then feels like u can flip it open. haahahahah TOILET... WOW

FUNNY STUFF "THE GUY" SAID #3

"we can get on the train one la. cause we have learnt the ART OF SQUEEZING no prob one, usually people get their asses off at orchard. so there'll be plenty of space, oh ya sijit? (didnt hear clearly) u like wat brand is ur watch."

"swiss"

"oh, so u like swiss watches. then wat type u like?"

"what what type?"

"those type with big IN-YOUR-FACE face. and also wat kind of strap"

"okay with the size of faces, usually big size,"

"then what type strap?"

"any strap"

the other friend "give bra strap la"

THE GUY: "wlao, SO RUDE, here got LADIES, ladies L-A-D-I-E-S!"

then the other friend was like saying for their some overseas crazy hunt, they gonna create this scavenger hunt where they have to approach total strangers well FEMALE strangers to donate their BRA STRAPS if its unhookable on both ends to make watch strap. --

the guy: "whoa u very clear hor, even noe bra strap got hook on sides or not. PRO ARH"

other friend: WLAO BRA STRAP OF COURSE GOT HOOK. wad!

the guy + sj: but how u noe got variation one, like we both nvr knew, only u noe arh, so EXPERIENCED (like OMG.. --) we all tot like ONE PIECE, u noe like T-shirt except that back got 2 hooks but not to hook the straps over the shoulders is the one holding the cups one.

other friend: (slightly embarrassed) EH got ladies, LADIES, dont say liao la, so loud somemore.

HAHAHAHAH I didnt mean to eavesdrop, but they were just saying so LOUD SOMEMORE. ahaah ok not loud as in beside them can hear. -- hahahah x) funnyfunnyfunny! english as broken as it is! haha sounds so homely (:

anyway it was funny! :D and i spent $8.20 @ Mr.Bean, i bot 6 sian dousha, one chocolate one red bun sort of BUN THING, then one cold dounai. but the woman gave me a HOT dounai. -- hahah but nvm, then i brot my stuff into the train. of course i didnt eat. (: bring home share with my aunty and parents :D xiaohei was staring at me pleadingly xD so gave her a little piece of bun without the chocolate, they cant take chocolate (: haha so my day sort of ended. (: haha

WAH, im at the office, cant go home watch the drama, mondays got special back to back episodes of little nyonya! man i love their starting song! Sounds DEEP, CULTUR-OUS and nice! :D

loveloveloveit! :D i watch until the part last friday where aunt lan was pushed over by a frantic husband of Meiyu (cant rmbr his name) when aunt lan sort of found out that he was having affair with xiujuan. poor yuzhu! WAH i HATE the CHARLIE ZHANG and his son. stupid rich snobbers! sometimes i feel like jumping into the tv and strangling them AH WELLS -- xD wonder what happens NEXT! :D bah, already missed the first 25 minutes of the show liao D: %$#%##$ MAMA I WAN GO HOME! XD i hope they can close shop earlier ): so we can go have dinner earlier and tv and rest (: HAAH U NOE I PLANNED TO GO home to day one. so got backtobackTVenjoyment! like

7pm channel 8 心花朵朵开2

8pm channel 8 小娘惹

9pm channel 8 小娘惹

10pm channel U 一枝梅

BOOHOO THERE GOES MY MEI MENG! HMPH! T-t

u see BACK TO BACK enjoyment, total 4 hours! X)

OKAY! am tired go help 关店了！

byebye! :D

崖の上のポニョ

2008-12-29T03:20:00.001-08:00

PONYO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-27T21:07:00.001-08:00

i AM SOOOO FREAKING TIRED!!!!!!!
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i feel so deprived of sleep!!!
i dream so much i FEEL EVER MORE TIRED after i wake up
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh
and i am limited to pills only once a week!
@##$@*&()&#@$#^%&*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'

bloodybloodyrem!!!!!

2008-12-26T18:43:00.000-08:00

the cute dad :D^^

2008-12-26T08:42:00.001-08:00

ive got a

planner,

executive writing pad :D,

new20pocketsclearfolder

a new blue pen that i rllyRLY LIKE!

a nice tigger notebook for Qns

buahahah, im all set to go for 2009. ah wells, the feeling hasnt really stabled. but i guess i sort of kandekai already.. ah wells, life goes on (:

I shall post abt 24th dec! i went to watch cape no.7 with jinjin! omg, it was a really deep touching movie! (: love,music,life sort of mixed feelings after that show. aniwaes, really really enjoyed the show the male lead's singing is real good. :D i was late for 1/2 hour in meeting jinjin D: i waited for bus 28 for close to an hour ): haizzz. and the rain just wont stop raining, + i didnt bring the common gate remote out, so i couldnt run back and get my umbrella. i just left it at home, totaly forgot the existence of rain. HAI. aniwaes. took 28 to toapayoh, and took the train to orchard and got REALLY LOST outside orchard mrt. should go out to the taka exit there, but went to the orchard boulevard exit. -.- jinjin says that im singaporean, yet am so lost in singapore's most hustly and bustly street. heehee. the buildings all look the same!!! XD -- its just ALOT of junctions hahahhhahhaha. shall improve my direction sense P:

the we had late lunch @ 1 at this jap food restaurant heehee, jinjin ate the soba dish and i ate puddings and drank coke :D hahahhahaah the mango pudding quite nice (: jinjin explained to me wat was soba. ahwells :D i didnt know whether do they mix utensils, so i didnt eat the soba :D shall learn to make vegan soba when im free. (: *enjoying my delicious curry puff*

then we went to the hall 6 of the cinema for our cape no. 7 after trying to decipher the confusing lvls of cineleisure! :D in the end we couldnt go in cos it wasnt SEATING YET! hmph... gahahah so we went down to get popcorn coke, we got a combi for 8bucks :D popcorn 1/2 sweet + salty, 2 cokes + 2 seaweed cuttlefish hahaha (: then went to watch. (:

after that SEPHORA!!! (: but was a BIGBIG letdown ): )'': there was no MakeUpForEver, but the usual biggies that u can find everywhere. lancome, guerlain. I REALLY want the makeupforever lipbalm ): jie gave one to me, but i lost it! and its reallygood , i MEAN REALLY GOOD! its abt US$18. man,,,, why didnt they bring in the labels that are not in singapore. the too faced counter was dazzling, but i dont really like too faced, not much pigment and sort of fades/ wearout soon. HAHAA, dunno, but i like MakeUpForEver! (: man i really love MUFE! x) hxjie uses it alot and ive seen how good it is HAHAA, wore some of it for ONCE, felt quite nice, at least no skin irritation (: hxjie loves it and absolutely blasts away alot of her salary for a loot of it usually off the net (: so much that she cancels sephora email updates. cause whenever she checks her mail, and sees sephora mails, it massacres her lovely wallet :D which is NOT GOOD.

COS, if its VERY massacred. she'll scrimp -- and... there goes my free treats :D HEEEEEEHEEE! hahha ok, back to little movie trip. jinjin advises that should try shiseido! cause its made to suit asian skin. (: not a fan of shiseido ads, the maquillage ones kinda blah oopssss.... jsut a personally opinion, but i like this lipstick ad by ito misaki :D hahahah realy CUTE and CREATIVE, original, NAME IT! (:

ah wdv too lazy I WANT TO SLEEP SO BYE

2008-12-24T09:10:00.000-08:00

i can't stop listening to all the songs below. -- HMPH

唯一

大城小爱

不要害怕

Forever Love

Kiss Goodbye

所以我说leh。。。歌颂感情的歌曲是百听不厌和永远都不会过时的！(:

2008-12-23T08:19:00.000-08:00

Falling here and there

stumbling

into a whole new world of close strangers

Survival

Thriving

I'm nervous ):

I'm rather overwhelmed at times ):

COURAGE

YES

find my courage!

COURAGE!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHH!!!!!

-------------------------------------------

and i just want to dedicate this lovely poem,

to my friends (:

Of all the friends i've ever met,

You're the one i wont forget

And if i die before you do

i'll go to heaven and wait for you

i'll give the angels back their wings

and risk the loss of everything

Just to prove

my friendship is true

to have such a great friend

just like you!

OK HERE GOES another version xD

Of all the friends i've ever met

You're the one i wont forget

and if i die before you do

i'll go to heaven and wait for you

if you're not there on judgement day

i'll know you went the other way

i'll give the angels back their wings

and risk the loss of everything

Just to prove my friendship is true

I'll go to hell to be with you

And so very genius! :D those people who wrote these poems! X) Spread the love, and officially,

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-22T16:54:00.001-08:00

i want to take care of children!

ok this sounds pretty random (:

but i randomly clicked on this dumex ad and went exploring their website. and there was this trivia about TOUCH!

Touch is the only sense that gives your baby three things they need. It provides a sense of safety and security, gets them involved with the world around them and is a way that you can communicate with them and they can respond to you. As if you needed an excuse for more cuddles! <3

haha :D

it gives me more reason to exercise my NUOMI-NESS!

WHAAHAAHAHAAAH MUAHAHAHAHAHAH BUAHAAHAHHAHAHAH!!!

2008-12-22T09:24:00.000-08:00

今天我很感动

真的真的很感动！谢谢你kk！Thankyou for all the great memories! :D
i will never forget during obs, the torture of 11km. our bottles tied together, haha the time when we were during sentry duty and we sat on the jerry cans outside and chatted! :D and the SCARY rowboat ride. You are really really REALLY BRAVE. i seriously thought i would die there on the scary seas. a voice in my head was really really REALLY sort of making out the headlines on the papers tmrw reporting death of blabla on the seas. ): gee, im really afraid of water. :D And also the times when u cooked, haha! the maggi noodles (: hee.

Thankyou for being really considerate. I could nag abt this for a long time but i really must say this:

Cos im a vegetarian.

im afraid of troubling people with my special diet

and THANKYOU VERY MUCH

for always

挺身而出ing

拔刀相助ing

my princess in shining tresses! :D

u did all that in both obs and gcp

THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU!

Thankyou for always been there, listening to me at night even after lights out. Listening to me rant abt my century long medical history problems, my xinshi. Thankyou for lending me a listening ear always! Thankyou for being my travel-mate, on the bus, or around those trips during gcp! i am an extremely 糯米饭 + superglue + silicon sealing/bonding gel person :D thankyou for putting up with my nuomi-ness and lameness. haha :D and also when my evil, emo twin possesses me. thankyou! thankyou for the daidi and bridge lessons!:D 名师出“高徒”xD seriously, u made me use my brain so much that i really conk out that day after all that daidaibridging :D somuch that i wasnt much bothered abt rem sleep the day after.

thankyou for telling me about myself, i've never felt so positive about myself ever. (:

and here in BIG BOLD WORDS:

THANKYOU!

i guess im pretty housewifey. dunno. but, its just me that i like to take care of pple. im not praising myself, but haha i like the feeling of taking care of people. MAn, i havent got around to learning first aid. i think i might take a cours in nursing perhaps?

i believe all creations comes from emotions and comes from gandongs. so much that you create something to memento the gandong. I can already visualize my future creations. And definitely am going to dedicate them to the great people that i've known. Apparently my mom has voiced out that i'm not the dressy kind. But... here goes :D i like dressing others up but just cannot dress myself up. i've found my voice, my direction for my future.

I feelthat ive grown up, recgonised more about myself, recgonised that i actually have many friends who are willing to support me. i salute you guys for helping me, pushing me and giving me the moral support. even though if im going to retain, i wont forget you guys. even though im going to be one level behind you guys, i will really miss you guys!

Thanks to all these people!:

Kakay(ive seriously learnt alot from u), Jessica who always there for me!, Christine, Liqi, Soochin, xiangchuin

Quekying, caijing, jinjin for lending me her notes and jyjy-ing me along, xinhui, carol, kaiqing

THERES too many people to thank. TOO MANY TOO MANY....

i will continue sharing food, sharing stuff, sharing my love.

im just like marley

give me your heart, and i'll give you mine

Life doesnt stop, and i promised myself not to cry about the FA result after today. i will sleep tonight, hide under my blanket and cry all abt it. and after that, when the tears dry, i will remember and cherish the good the people around me have shown me. As much as i bushede u guys, i will wish you guys all the best in sec4. And, i will never forget you guys.

With so much love im in, i dont see why i should think that life is bleak.

its colourful, and its gaining more hues and joy exponentially.

words cant phrase out exactly what i feel now.

but to those out there who have always been supporting me, i give you my heartfelt thanks from the bottom of my heart. and to those new people that im going to be with next year, i hope you guys can accept me and im gonna make sure no one follows in my path. i will give the people around me my heart. i will make my life better.

Thankyou my dear friends.

Our last day is not today.

our last day is going to be so MANY years down the road.

come to think of it

we're only 15 (10+)

and when it comes to our last day

we'll be jolly old and grey

I'll always give all the ones i love my heart and all

I'll always give them my care and protection

I'll always give them my support

I'll always remember the ones who helped me along bumps and falls.

help me pick myself out of the doldrums

Thankyou all of u guys. i've never felt so positive about myself before. i'm going to start afresh.

AND in BIG BOLD WORDS:

FEEL THE LOVE!<3

2008-12-18T20:32:00.000-08:00

i dont like being uprooted suddenly and stuck in a bunch of new people again.
especially after you've gotten close with people.
maybe not everyone.
but at least close friends.
maybe not that close but i dont even know
but they feel like close friends.
i dont know why i sound so incoherent.
i cant phrase things well now.
i dont deserve all that
would one induce stupid medic conditions on onseself
so that it makes u so distant from everyone, so lonely
and so stupid. and so slow in the rat race of life?
and get everyone mad at oneself.
the tchrsvpexcocmsvpdn
all of them
all that you can imagine.
do u think one wants a life like that?
one cant help it.
one doesnt want it to happen.
one is dying.
one doesnt know anything else one can do
one can do ones best.
and one IS doing one's best
one is making up actively for what she lacks alrdy
one is working hard
one is working hard at improving her health too
one cant promise that she's the best
but one is working hard
give one a chance will you?
please?

where can one find solace in?
shrinks? ANTIDs? or naproxen?
Vs? DMs?
one really wants a chance.
one knows that one had thrown away a whole year of chances
but one didnt choose to throw it ALL away.
one knows that one has to change, one has to adapt
and so one is doing all that now.
who sees it? who considers it? one doesnt care.
one cares, because one is doing it, one is seeing the improvement in it, one is being patient at it, one is working hard at it, one is doing one's best for it, one isnt doing it for people to see it. one is doing it because one knows that to learn is a joy. and one is comprehending the joy and learning to handle the joy.

one really wants a chance and one knows that one have already given oneself a chance already.

2008-12-14T05:41:00.000-08:00

为什么我那么寂寞。

为什么越走越难过、越走越寂寞。

再乐观也是战时的心里安慰。。。

没有人会真正理解。

只会在背后闲言闲语。

说够了吧你们？

讨人厌！不了解就别乱说。

口出狂言会伤人的

到底懂不懂？

不喜欢我也就算了。

起码我知道我不随便得罪人。

不知到底如何得罪你了

你过你的生活、我过我的。

若真有冒犯之处。那对不起

请你有点自知之明。

不要太过分！

2008-12-14T00:06:00.000-08:00

思念是一种美。。。这是首歌的歌词，我隐隐约约记得是王力宏的一首歌。

歌很奇妙。。。短短几句复歌，却能强而有力的直透听者的心情。。。
填词的人真有感情。感情是一切伟大创作的最根本来源。不是吗？
只有感受过，才可以把那份感受写出来，拼成创作。

难怪歌颂感情的歌曲，永远都不会过时。
原来如此。

- 我的原创心得（：

2008-12-12T18:44:00.000-08:00

Behind every great man are greater friends, keep walking

Interesting eh? Saw this in a msn conversation advertisement, inspiring i guess. (:

Very meaningful! (: i'm not a great man, but i feel that this sentence is true. "the bell rings true". heehee.

Like that day when i went for my fa. I was really touched. (:

Thankyou:

Kaiqing

Quek Ying

Jessica

Kakay

Christine

Cherie

Wan Ting

Keep walking huici.. go on (:

YEs i will. i wont crash and burn and die halfway.

I WILL SURVIVE. (: no, not survive, i mean.. thrive (:

i think i have atypical depression. hahaha OK FORGET THAT (:

My brain is getting alot of info now, learning alot of new things, not to forget relearning all. haha, we live to learn, live to make mistakes, but we learn from it. thats what that makes up all the difference. THE CHANGE WE NEED! or rather, the CHANGE i need. i'm making it now. (: so lifes good and its only to get better in future.

I have alot of dreams and aspirations. i want to be a doctor, a nurse, a scientist? although i hate chemistry, but having a pair of healing hands, a brain that works out vaccines, medicines that can save billions, trillions of people. i want to be a customer service agent, taking in customer enquires, requests that gives patrons of the company smiles and praises. i want to be a drama mama, an actor on those heartwarming family dramas, i want the stage the spotlight to take on different roles, emotions... i want to be a cabin attendant, taking care of people in the air, well versed in rescue and emergency situations, all promising an enjoyable and safe flight to all destinations. i want to be a paramedic, helping save lives in emergency situations. i want to be a clothes designer, but sometimes i look at myself in the mirror and i cant help but say, i love dressing people up, but i just cant dress myself up. i love dolling people up, but i just cant bring myself to doll myself up. haiz. i want to be so much more so much more....

So many dreams, so many aspirations, only one life? so what the heck was i crying abt sometime in this year that i dont want to live? (:

But where do i start off? How do i categorize them? How do i fit all this into my life? Simple, plan ahead and be conscientious. (did i spell the word correct?. oh yes i did (: )

TO-DO Lists:
- Finish practises math trigo and algebra revision

- Finish practice questions thats were printed off heymath

- haha and alot more.

* Buy 2009 planner, work out schedule, apply for BS stay, prep and rev up my engine, all my mistakes all my shortcomings.

theres so much more! (: YEs positivity!! positivity! (:

i will thrive!

and ps: reminds me of someone x) in a good way!

2008-12-08T05:55:00.000-08:00

WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE PRINTER?
WHAT WENT WRONG WITH THE PRINTER?
WHAT IS IT THAT IS WRONG WITH THE PRINTER?
WHY IS THE PRINTER WORKING LIKE THAT?
WHY IS THE PRINTER NOT PRINTING THE WHOLE THING
WHY IS THE PRINTER ONLY PRINTING THE CENTRE STRIP OF ALL THE STUFF I PRINTED?

IS THE PRINTER SPOILT?

samsung CLP-310, gosh, somethings that i never figure out. ARGH!

2008-12-07T22:41:00.000-08:00

Forever love! (:

爱你

不是因为你的美而已

我越来越爱你

每个眼神触动我的心

因为你让我看见forever

才了解自己

未来这些日子

要好好珍惜

爱我

有些痛苦

有些不公平

如果真的爱我

不是理所当然的决定

感到你的呼吸在我身边

像微风神奇

温柔的安抚我的不安定

所以我要每天研究你的笑容

oh...多么自然

forever love forever love

我只想用我这一辈子去爱你

从今以后，你会是所有，幸福的理由

爱情是场最长最元的旅行

沿途雨季泥

2008-12-07T13:47:00.001-08:00

-.- suddenly.. i feel like playing taiti! and bridgE! haha took an awfully long time to learn it. i shall play it with my cats. haha i did try ok, but they give more than one cards sometimes, and sometimes, the card is like permanently atached and mangled. HAHAHA (:

2008-12-07T09:46:00.000-08:00

i missed the times when i could clap my hands, smile in my head, laugh like a mad woman that i can finally manipulate some math-related issues. (:

i shall say that: i like math alot, just not the struggle. Haha.
suddenly i remember that during the beijing trip on the bus to shunmei garments i think, they were showing some olympic related videos. then there was one about the greatness of sportsmen, sportswomen and their athletic spirit.

they said:
it is not the glory, but the struggle.

Suddenly i think of the Mastercard/Visa advertisement. the priceless advertisement. The renditions of cost haha:
Limited Editioned Designer Dress: $3500/-
A dress like no other: Priceless (:

"there are some things money can't buy... For everything else, there's Mastercard"
And heres a really nice, touching commercial (: pretty funny, the monkey in there haha.

2008-12-07T08:56:00.000-08:00

A very close hao xiong di sms-ed just now. (: cheered me up!

HAHA!

sms: ... You'll nvr walk alone!

jiayou ok? (:

YES, my dear friends out there, YOU'll nvr walk alone! hahaha (: nah, dont watch much football but i like that line. it belongs to liverpool FC is it? (: hahah i have a liverpool towel, red and white haha and BIG WORDS: YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE.

so CHeers to being cheered up! hope i cheered you up! (:

Happiness is Contagious

2008-12-06T20:53:00.000-08:00

Happiness is contagious. (:

"Dont worry, be happy"
Being happy yourself, makes others happy
A little smile goes miles and miles, even further than that.
A this is a little article about happiness from yahoo! (:

Good Cheer may spread itself, a study suggests

By MARIA CHENG,AP Medical Writer AP - Friday, December 5
LONDON - When you're smiling, the whole world really does smile with you.

A paper being published Friday in a British medical journal concludes that happiness is contagious _ and that people pass on their good cheer even to total strangers.

American researchers who tracked more than 4,700 people in Framingham, Mass., as part of a 20-year heart study also found the transferred happiness is good for up to a year.

"Happiness is like a stampede," said Nicholas Christakis, a professor in Harvard University's sociology department and co-author of the study. "Whether you're happy depends not just on your own actions and behaviors and thoughts, but on those of people you don't even know."

While the study is another sign of the power of social networks, it ran through 2003, just before the rise of social networking Web sites like Friendster, MySpace and Facebook. Christakis couldn't say for sure whether the effect works online.

"This type of technology enhances your contact with friends, so it should support the kind of emotional contagion we observed," he said.

Christakis and co-author James Fowler, of the University of California in San Diego, are old hands at studying social networks. They previously found that obesity and smoking habits spread socially as well.

For this study, published in the British journal BMJ, they examined questionnaires that asked people to measure their happiness. They found distinct happy and unhappy clusters significantly bigger than would be expected by chance.

Happy people tended to be at the center of social networks and had many friends who were also happy. Having friends or siblings nearby increased people's chances of being upbeat. Happiness spread outward by three degrees, to the friends of friends of friends.

Happy spouses helped, too, but not as much as happy friends of the same gender. Experts think people, particularly woman, take emotional cues from people who look like them.

Christakis and Fowler estimate that each happy friend boosts your own chances of being happy by 9 percent. Having grumpy friends decreases it by about 7 percent.

But it also turns out misery don't love company: Happiness seemed to spread more consistently than unhappiness. But that doesn't mean you should drop your gloomy friends.

"Every friend increases the probability that you're at the center of a network, which means you are more eligible to get a wave of happiness," Fowler said.

Being happy also brings other benefits, including a protective effect on your immune system so you produce fewer stress hormones, said Andrew Steptoe, a psychology professor at University College London who was not involved with the study.

But you shouldn't assume you can make yourself happy just by making the right friends.
"To say you can manipulate who your friends are to make yourself happier would be going too far," said Stanley Wasserman, an Indiana University statistician who studies social networks.
The study was only conducted in a single community, so it would take more research to confirm its findings. But in a time of economic gloom, it also suggested some heartening news about money and happiness.

According to the research, an extra chunk of money increases your odds of being happy only marginally _ notably less than the odds of being happier if you have a happy friend.

"You can save your money," Christakis said. "Being around happy people is better."

speaking of being happy, have you smiled today? (:

2008-12-01T03:55:00.000-08:00

赵詠华的歌：《相见太晚》

我想信第三者的愛,也是有真愛的,就算今生無果,來生再續

这句话的穿透力好深。。。

2008-12-01T03:16:00.000-08:00

终于把GCP的总结写完了。。。
写的当中不知浪费了多少张纸。。。相信这是难免的啦。因为，我们曾有过理想类似的生活，真的是太多的感受，绝非三言两语能形容。时间总是不知不觉地过去了，回忆总是美。。。

在里面，提了一首我很喜欢的美酒歌：不知道你们有没有听过，也许只有复歌的部分熟悉。
这首歌就是伍思凯的

《分享》：

时间已做了选择什么人叫做朋友
偶而碰头心情却能一点就通
因为我们曾有过理想类似的生活
太多感受绝非三言两语能形容

可能有时我们顾虑太多
太多决定需要我们去选择
担心会犯错难免会受挫
幸好一路上有你陪我

与你分享的快乐胜过独自拥有
至今我仍深深感动

好友如同一扇窗能让视野不同

与你分享的快乐胜过独自拥有
至今我仍深深感动

好友如同一扇门让世界开阔

28天的时光，没有在总结里把一点一滴写清，真觉得有点懊恼。若总结能用时光回流机来展示，该有多么好。28天里的一次次感动，分享的每一分快乐，三言两语说不出。。。你过来，我听见你的心。有一个梨，夏天去游泳，流了很多汗水。。。HAHA 好怀念。也有很多美好的回忆。。。说来话长，说短了也等于白说。只能在悠闲的时候，掏出记事本，慢慢的写出来。在此又想起的一首歌：

赵咏华的《最浪漫的事》
背靠着背坐在地毯上
听听音乐聊聊愿望
你希望我越来越温柔
我希望你放我在心上

你说想送我个浪漫的梦想
谢谢我带你找到天堂
哪怕用一辈子才能完成
只要我讲你就记住不忘

我能想到最浪漫的事
就是和你一起慢慢变老
一路上收藏点点滴滴的欢笑
留到以后坐着摇椅慢慢聊

我能想到最浪漫的事
就是和你一起慢慢变老
直到我们老的哪也去不了
你还依然把我当成。。。心里的宝

REPEAT ENTIRE SONG

好听吧？当然，ＧＣＰ不是蜜月旅行。。。不要动歪脑筋。哈哈，这次在人生的笔记本里，留下了一个灿烂的回忆，难忘的体验。

为人生加油，与家人，朋友和自己所爱的人分享、共同度过。人生之有一次，也是最后一次，人有悲欢离合、月有阴晴圆缺，有缘我们再会。。。

2008-12-01T01:44:00.000-08:00

孙燕姿 <天黑黑>

我的小时候
吵闹任性时侯
我的外婆总会唱歌哄我
夏天的午后
老老的歌安慰我
那首歌好象这样唱的

天黑黑欲落雨
天黑黑黑黑

离开小时候
有了自己的生活
新鲜的歌
新鲜的念头
任性和冲动
无法控制的时候
我忘记还有这样的歌

天黑黑欲落雨
天黑黑黑黑

我爱上让我奋不顾身的一个人
我以为这就是我所追求的世界
然而横冲直撞被误解被骗
是否成人的世界背后总有残缺

我走在每天必须面对的分岔路
我怀念过去单纯美好的小幸福
爱总是让人哭让人觉得不满足
天空很大却看不清楚好孤独

天黑的时候
我又想起那首歌
突然期待下起安静的雨
原来外婆的道理
早就唱给我听

下起雨也要勇敢前进….
我相信一切都会平息
我现在好想回家去

天黑黑欲落雨
天黑黑黑黑

2008-12-01T01:38:00.000-08:00

孙燕姿<遇见>
.
听见冬天的离开
我在某年某月醒过来
我想我等我期待
未来却不能因此安排
--
阴天傍晚车窗外
未来有一个人在等待
向左向右向前看
爱要拐几个弯才来
我遇见谁会有怎样的对白
我等的人他在多远的未来
我听见风来自地铁和人海
我排著队拿著爱的号码牌
--
我往前飞飞过一片时间海
我们也曾在爱情里受伤害
我看著路梦的入口有点窄
我遇见你是最美丽的意外
--
总有一天我的谜底会解开

DEPRIVATION OF SLEEP

2008-05-21T10:31:00.000-07:00

hihihihi!:
i just saw an article when i opened my internet browser! :D eeeee

TITLE: Sleepy brain prone to sudden shutdowns study
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CHICAGO (Reuters) - Being deprived of sleep even for one night makes the brain unstable and prone to sudden shutdowns akin to a power failure -- brief lapses that hover between sleep and wakefulness, researchers said on Tuesday.
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"It's as though it is both asleep and awake and they are switching between each other very rapidly," said David Dinges of the University of Pennsylvania School of Medicine, whose study appears in the Journal of Neuroscience.
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"Imagine you are sitting in a room watching a movie with the lights on. In a stable brain, the lights stay on all the time. In a sleepy brain, the lights suddenly go off," Dinges said in a telephone interview.
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The findings suggest that people who are sleep-deprived alternate between periods of near-normal brain function and dramatic lapses in attention and visual processing.
"This involves more structures changing than we've ever seen before, but changing just during these lapses," Dinges said.
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He and colleagues did brain imaging studies on 24 adults who performed simple tasks involving visual attention when they were well rested and when they had missed a night's sleep.
The researchers used a type of brain imaging known as functional magnetic resonance imaging, or fMRI, which measures blood flow in the brain.
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They found significant, momentary lapses in several areas of the brain, which seemed to frequently falter when the people were deprived of sleep, but not when these same people were well rested.
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"These people are not lying in bed. They are sitting up doing a task they learned and they are working very hard at doing their best," Dinges said.
He said the lapses seem to suggest that loss of sleep renders the brain incapable of fully fending off the involuntary drive to sleep.
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He said the study makes it clear how dangerous sleep deprivation can be while driving on the highway, when even a four-second lapse could lead to a major accident.
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"These are not just academic interests," he said.
(Editing by Will Dunham and Cynthia Osterman)
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life is just so wrong. u cant sleep when u want to. haiz. my AM sabbats is fun! :D pretty deep in thought, provoking in thought, aesthetically drilling... :] i was just that it is quite tiring... like the article said. i was fluctuating during near-normal brain functions and DRAMATIC LAPSES. too bad D: i was really suddenly facing a shutdown in my brain system...
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IM DYING: look @ my debt list... T____T
-------> MWS 9.2/10.1/11.1? (NNEED???)
-------> AMES 4,5,6 (T___T Idunnohowtodo!!!!)
-------> PHYASS 5.1?
-------> ZUOWEN ARHHHH
-------> and LJ that i missed...
-------> DUSHUBG! ): eeeuyarghhhhhhhhh....
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seems like my systems going to shutdown ): i want to change a skin and use another emo skin maybe i can call it SHUTDOWN... ARGH my system is undergoing another DRAMATIC LAPSe>
who fell asleep on ur feet b4? i fell asleep on a bus.. ok. i seriously dont like the new buses that they use. YES I KNW its a friendly bus for the less fortunate. BUt for me a personal opinion, i dont think that its really practical becos the seat for buses is so high up! ): and i dont feel that it uses space very well!
NEXT I would like to recommend this tea shop! :D Taiwan Oolong Tea! :D its @ toa payoh bus interchange there! tucked at a nice corner for near the gate for buses @ the end of its route which is obviously! :] TOA PAYOH INTERCHANGE! :D today i specially took a turn in buses to pass by toa payoh interchange :] then i specially went to that store to buy the tea for my mom! :D she likes it and its good for health too.. so it doesnt matter bout the time and longer journey :] so i specially went there to buy tea :] and they really are very serious about each cup of tea! :] i bought one 500ml Plum Green Tea and one 500ml Winter Melon Tea. its really good! :D BUT I WAS SO BUTTERFINGERS. as i was walking away -- i.. d.ro.pped. it. ): WAHH! BUT! xD they were so kind they came to help me! :D pick up the spilling drink... and even mopped it up! its like in SG last time my house there got this pile of broken glass shards.. and it was there for a full year. people walked past it pple drove past it but they simply dont care? at hawker centres pple can spill food on the floor and table like nobody's business cause they feel its the CLEANER's business. yea wadevr!
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they helped me!!! i am so touched! :] the nice shopkeeper even made me another set of plum tea and wintermelon tea! :] and they are really serious abt each cup of tea! :] im not onl y promoting this tea store jhus because they helped me, its really because of their commendable attitude in their business :] enthusiastic and serious, they are really kind to customers too! next they are also good in their quality of tea! :D fresh flown in tea leaves from taiwan tea farms! :D and brewed freshly, packaged in good quality takeaway cups. HEY its really good, it keeps the tea warm for one hour and cool for one hour too. :D and the best part is , it doesnt kill your fingers holding it! :] like the extreme cold that comes to thermal equilibrium with the cup and the cold comes to ur hands.. or the HEAT! :] so its really value. its really value for money. the shop is quite small! i feel that they have a good future here! :D do try it out! :D its really good x] haha i think im going to treat every fren that i go out with next time and pass by Toa payoh interchange! :] *happy!!!* so here comes the Qn! who feels like going out with me this hols! :D we can pass by TOA PAYOH INTERCHANGE ! :D and say hello to a cup of tea! :]
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YARGH... MY DEBT. i fell into another dramatic lapse. im troubled.. PL for lasia hasnt really replied me much recently. and we have to go down this WK theres a camp coming up. eee im tired D:
lifes really becomes a dreary rat race. i owe pple too much.. im working hard to PAY* them off..
haiz.... i wonder who wil hound me tmrw............... i think theres going to be heavy rain tomrorow since the bluelbue sky ! is cloudy now. :] not blueblue. blackblack? nah.. the sky isnt black. :]
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gosh. pHYSIA! i hadnt done anithing yet,,, =/ what a dreary night.......
life goes on...
life drones on...
life is ebbing away.... slowly.. slowly..
precious life without a clear goal is ebbed away slowly... why?
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*Que sera sera... what ever wil be will be...*
the futures not ours to see. que sera sera....
when i was just a little girl. i asked my mother
will i be pretty, will i be rich?
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ive been asking... what should i do when i grow up. dont think that its childish. dont u think its true to ask such Qns? what should i do after i graduate? what if i cant? what will happen? what do i pursue ? what do i desire? W H A T ?? im really lost? i feel.
): ): ):
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DYING FROM dramatic lapses... i shall go work hard at clearing my debt now. cya
cya :]

suicide, read this first

2008-05-19T14:32:00.000-07:00

If you are thinking abt suicide..

read this first

If you are feeling suicidal now, please stop long enough to read this. It will only take about five minutes. I do not want to talk you out of your bad feelings. I am not a therapist or other mental health professional - only someone who knows what it is like to be in pain.

I don’t know who you are, or why you are reading this page. I only know that for the moment, you’re reading it, and that is good. I can assume that you are here because you are troubled and considering ending your life. If it were possible, I would prefer to be there with you at this moment, to sit with you and talk, face to face and heart to heart. But since that is not possible, we will have to make do with this.

I have known a lot of people who have wanted to kill themselves, so I have some small idea of what you might be feeling. I know that you might not be up to reading a long book, so I am going to keep this short. While we are together here for the next five minutes, I have five simple, practical things I would like to share with you. I won’t argue with you about whether you should kill yourself. But I assume that if you are thinking about it, you feel pretty bad.

Well, you’re still reading, and that’s very good. I’d like to ask you to stay with me for the rest of this page. I hope it means that you’re at least a tiny bit unsure, somewhere deep inside, about whether or not you really will end your life. Often people feel that, even in the deepest darkness of despair. Being unsure about dying is okay and normal. The fact that you are still alive at this minute means you are still a little bit unsure. It means that even while you want to die, at the same time some part of you still wants to live. So let’s hang on to that, and keep going for a few more minutes.

Start by considering this statement:
“Suicide is not chosen; it happenswhen pain exceeds resources for coping with pain.”
That’s all it’s about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn’t even mean that you really want to die - it only means that you have more pain than you can cope with right now. If I start piling weights on your shoulders, you will eventually collapse if I add enough weights... no matter how much you want to remain standing. Willpower has nothing to do with it. Of course you would cheer yourself up, if you could.
Don’t accept it if someone tells you, “that’s not enough to be suicidal about.” There are many kinds of pain that may lead to suicide. Whether or not the pain is bearable may differ from person to person. What might be bearable to someone else, may not be bearable to you. The point at which the pain becomes unbearable depends on what kinds of coping resources you have. Individuals vary greatly in their capacity to withstand pain.

When pain exceeds pain-coping resources, suicidal feelings are the result. Suicide is neither wrong nor right; it is not a defect of character; it is morally neutral. It is simply an imbalance of pain versus coping resources.

You can survive suicidal feelings if you do either of two things: (1) find a way to reduce your pain, or (2) find a way to increase your coping resources. Both are possible.
Now I want to tell you five things to think about.

-1.You need to hear that people do get through this -- even people who feel as badly as you are feeling now. Statistically, there is a very good chance that you are going to live. I hope that this information gives you some sense of hope.

-2.Give yourself some distance. Say to yourself, “I will wait 24 hours before I do anything.” Or a week. Remember that feelings and actions are two different things - just because you feel like killing yourself, doesn’t mean that you have to actually do it right this minute. Put some distance between your suicidal feelings and suicidal action. Even if it’s just 24 hours. You have already done it for 5 minutes, just by reading this page. You can do it for another 5 minutes by continuing to read this page. Keep going, and realize that while you still feel suicidal, you are not, at this moment, acting on it. That is very encouraging to me, and I hope it is to you.

-3.People often turn to suicide because they are seeking relief from pain. Remember that relief is a feeling. And you have to be alive to feel it. You will not feel the relief you so desperately seek, if you are dead.

-4.Some people will react badly to your suicidal feelings, either because they are frightened, or angry; they may actually increase your pain instead of helping you, despite their intentions, by saying or doing thoughtless things. You have to understand that their bad reactions are about their fears, not about you.

But there are people out there who can be with you in this horrible time, and will not judge you, or argue with you, or send you to a hospital, or try to talk you out of how badly you feel. They will simply care for you. Find one of them. Now. Use your 24 hours, or your week, and tell someone what’s going on with you. It is okay to ask for help. Try:

Send an anonymous e-mail to The Samaritans
Call 1-800-SUICIDE in the U.S.
Teenagers, call Covenant House NineLine, 1-800-999-9999
Look in the front of your phone book for a crisis line
Call a psychotherapist
Carefully choose a friend or a minister or rabbi, someone who is likely to listen
But don’t give yourself the additional burden of trying to deal with this alone. Just talking about how you got to where you are, releases an awful lot of the pressure, and it might be just the additional coping resource you need to regain your balance.

-5.Suicidal feelings are, in and of themselves, traumatic. After they subside, you need to continue caring for yourself. Therapy is a really good idea. So are the various self-help groups available both in your community and on the Internet.

Well, it’s been a few minutes and you’re still with me. I’m really glad.

Since you have made it this far, you deserve a reward. I think you should reward yourself by giving yourself a gift. The gift you will give yourself is a coping resource. Remember, back up near the top of the page, I said that the idea is to make sure you have more coping resources than you have pain. So let’s give you another coping resource, or two, or ten...! until they outnumber your sources of pain.

Now, while this page may have given you some small relief, the best coping resource we can give you is another human being to talk with. If you find someone who wants to listen, and tell them how you are feeling and how you got to this point, you will have increased your coping resources by one. Hopefully the first person you choose won’t be the last. There are a lot of people out there who really want to hear from you. It’s time to start looking around for one of them.
Now: I’d like you to call someone. :)

Note: pple who know my number can call me :] i will stir even from my deepest sleep x] so

please dont relief your pain the wrong way.. :]

lots of love,

someone-who-knows-what-it-is-like-to-be-in-pain

2008-04-23T10:57:00.000-07:00

hUi:

HELLO! :D im back again! after so long.. haiz. :/
the last post was about??? oh.. OBS! [: haiz i duno why im like sweating bullets to get to weekends. AND I AM ALWAYS FINDING MYSELF @ the end of the weekend CHIONGING UR HOMEWORK!

NONONONOO! DISCIPLINE.. DISCIPLINE... DISCIPLINE.... NONONONNOO!!
And now! i am supposed to go chiong out my geography! :/ i reached home today late again ): haiz..

oh ya! i shall tell u all abt YESTERDAY! XD (22nd april 2008)
22-04-08 is xiaoheihei's and xiaobaibai's and xiaohuihui's BIRTHDAY! x]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ;D i bought a small breadtalk cake! yippee! but i think in the end iwas the one that eats the most of it. WAHAHA! but its nice leh! :D i dont get tired of breadtalk cakes!they are simply delicious! :] i think my mom said something about that they dont use flour! but they use egg white to whip up the "cake" in the cake! :] i gave xiaohei the cake, i mean i littlebit! :] and also xiaobai and xiaohui! x) then the rest i jus ate it heehee withmy mom dad haha! we finished the cake so fast! XD

i want to take a family photo! :D

Ok! on to the next thing! :D well i got home around 8++ pm on the 22nd april! ): WHY? cause i went to Ma'am's abode! x] to carry out jojo's bio test there! xD JOJO I LOVE UR TOYS! GIMME SOMEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! x] ok i shal go bugg jojo to give me a sample of the toyyie! x] i am really glad i have my family with me! :] i love my dad, i love my mom, i love my bro, i love my aunty, i love my Dua Pek, i love my ancestors, i love my relatives, i love damaomao, i love xiaoheihei, i love xiaobaibai, i love xiaohuihui, i love xiaolanlan, i love lanlan, i love xiaoqingqing, i love daheihei! :] u must be wondering who are they well... if u noe me well u'll definitely know la! <3
okok get back on track!!! i with jojo to ma'am's house. We got off at ABCDEFG hotel then waffles clubbie then we crossed the road to get to XYZ XYZ! :] (to the discretion of friend! Note** name and address is altered!) I was amazed at the number of cats she have! :] there was one very playful cattie! XD hahahahah the one thatwas super hyper with all of jojo's toys! :D ONE MAN (*opps one cat) soccer! :D and there was a cat that kept on molesting my butt! -- haha! :D she was sa jiao-ing! :] from the back! then i guess the kitties were crazy about the SOCKS! :D reminds me of a song!!

@ the kitty cats' party

all the kitens will be there

they'll be dressed up in their sunday best

with flowers in their hair

wearing red & yellow ribbons

with a tiny tinklebell!

there'll kittens from the city! and the countryside as well!

when its time to eat! MEOWMEOW!!!

sardine cans piles up to the sky!

then i dont rmbr already.. SNIFF*sniFF* x(

i heard this song in a Funny Cats video on YouTube. haiz, i feel sad for youtube mannn... you can NVR EVER Find that original file anymore. ITS FRIGGIN irritating when people post those idiotic videos up on the YouTube or they jus rip the original add in their stupid nonsense and then they upload it again! ALSO I DONT WANT TO MENTION THOSE RR stuff that will come out under search results. IT IS SOOOOOOO WRONG! rawrss.

OK NVRMIND back to ma'am's cats. they were sweet little things la! :] then later i went into the room where they keep the sick animals! :/ sick kittens. i saw those with bai nei zang, sore eyes, weak stomach, flu.. cold.. :/ it tugs at my heartstrings to see them suffering, yet i think of how my loved ones have to deal with everyday stuff... PARENTS. love them, please love them, it is a sin to not love them. they are our world. they really are. for whom do they endure the prolonged fatigue for? for whom do they really worry their heads off for? im pretty glad that my parents are very democratic at home. as in they respect me, in me wanting to ONLY want ME dealing MY own studies on my own. I guess they sort of knows it since primary school. Since Primary 5 when my results were OMGGG haiz. MATH & Science. they used to intervene. but slowly they sort of realised that i like to keep my own studies to myself. i dont want to worry them in a sense. i guess that is mutual understanding? and yesterday night i watch 无声呐喊. that episode was about married couples dealing with marriages and how their marriage relationship becomes better.

i once read in a book that Marriage is a failure an untold sin. One of the characters in the book feels that marriage is simply the prostituition of a woman to a one and only man. Well. it sounds abit Adult here. but hmmm. hahahahha i shant talk about it further! :D be rest assured that that is a HEALTHY BOOK! ;] u can borrow it from me if u want to! :] its a great book x]

Oh ya i was really tugged at my heartstrings when ma'am came home and was feeding medicine to a kitten that is really suffering feleing very uncomfortable because of her flu. :'/ she kept on crying to ma'am. I SAID CRYING. it expresses the discomfort that she is in and slowly she helped clear her mucus. feed her medicine. calm her down. and eventually manage to coax it to sleep. Sometimes i wonder, HUMAN & ANIMAL relationship -VS- HUMAN & HUMAN relationship. which one is greater? :] i believe that animals and humans communicate through 无言的爱, they dont have a common language between the two. therefore, its really based on your understanding and how long youve been coexisting with the animal. i dont think that humans are really superior in anyway. well probably! but im too tired to explain! :]

SIgh.. i shall sing a song JJ taught me! :D

洗屁屁、洗屁屁

屁屁用水洗!

HAHA! :]

yippees again im looking forward to EOY TRIP!! OMGG!!!!! why cant life be a tape player, JSUT PRES PLAY! :] rewind and relive your greatest moments! :] Fast forward and enjoy your greatest anticipATION! :] yea yea fast forward away all the math and SCIENCE . YUCK.

haiz.. speaking bout math. its making me emotional again. :/ i dont understand math. YA i know myself im a VERY VERY VERY slow person in math. u tell me alpha + beta = (-b)/(a). and (Alpha)(Beta) = c/a i cant just accept IT! i neeed to question it and unerstand it! EVEN at a minimal level ill be grateful. i find myself coming to tears in class nowadays. when you are hopelessly lost. and you are really trying your best to understand... 问君能有几多愁... 恰似一江春水向东流........... 人生短短几十年... 为何人类要把生活搞得那么复杂? 人类的文明也是人类的退化.... :[ haiz... i cried during math today i was really TOTALLY LOSTTTT LOSTTTTTT during the graphic calculator discussion. i guess tomrorow i got to go consult mrsphua on my math. :/ the fff = ff(x) thing is still confusing me! i cant us suddenly switch my entire thinking processes into thinking that its SUBBING! F3 does not equals to F x F x F! i cant do it. i need time.. i really need time.. OH YA I AM A GOOD GIRL. i did my math coordinate geometry already. remedial work. and i have Qns to ask. :] i handed in my ws late again. hm... math. ive been crying my eyeballs out because of it. :/ i cry while doing my math ws. i cry while figuring out my remedial stuf. icry i cry icry. i jus hav to cry. i dont know why. its this immense self pity at your own immense stupidity. :/ i cannot catch up with the rest of the class. when you know you are behind the race, you run faster. you run faster. you run faster.. academic steriods... anyone? :]

i totally screwed my IH Bt. it was horriblew. i hafd a big fat negg for my last comparison Qn. SUCKS eh?

:] nvm

走出去就有路寻见了就有福

拥有的一切都进了包袱

思念是带不走的

天空阴云密布心中翻腾起伏

虽将飘摇前途仍模糊

此地会是我衣锦还乡处

飘洋过海我吃的起苦

相信天无绝人之路

现实有咒诅梦里有祝福

有缘同舟风雨共渡

顶着烈日当空眼底有迷雾

不能再让懦弱困住

日子多坎坷命运有变数

只盼久旱逢甘露

ok my friends! :] im going to go do my GEOGRAPHY HOMEWORK PROPER! :] I WILL GET FULL MARKS! YIPPEEEE!! x] i really love geography! :]

亲爱的朋友们:

飘洋过海我吃的起苦

相信天无绝人之路

现实有咒诅梦里有祝福

有缘同舟风雨共渡 ~

加油! like M1 said: 1life, live it ---- 生活、出精彩!

With lots of <3!

hUi! :]

Outward Bound!

2008-03-09T07:21:00.000-07:00

hey all~

i'm back to save this dying blog! :]

ok i'm seriously tired to type anything.

no, ive already recovered.
no, obs was really fun for me.
no, i havent started mugging yet.
no, ive already finished washing my bags full of pungent obs stuff
no, ive yet to even open my cob webbie bag.
no, ive yet to start doing what im supposed to do.
no, ive already started jumping around feeling the heat of stupid BTs
no, ive already started to pull my hair out over all these stupid SIAs.
no, ive havent really started the SIAs seriously except for 2 of em'
no, ive already been missing OBS.

SHIT i feel like sleeping.
i'm so tired today i dont know why.
i want to go out and jus play for a whole day then come home and sleep then mug the next day.
YA. but is it possible.
Lets look here. WAIT what BTs are coming up? when are day? well shit i dont know that???
aiya whatever about the days la.
- IH erm i dont understand?
- BSP??? got TEST? HUH??
- Chinese? is it the same as BSP or is it different? o.o
- Maths.. OK SHITS i did some studying ok! i wadsstudying the wrong topic... GOOD C.GEOM not tested ! :D
- Physics. what the hell. im still VERYVERYVERYY confused over the stupid graphs
- Chemistry. OMG? OMGG? what did i study for this term?
- AEP??? GOT?? OR DONT HAVE? I DONT NOE? WELL DIE?
- GEOGRAPHY. AHHHH I CAN DO THIS. YESYES!

ok whatever how and when and what did this post become about stupid BTs.
aiya. its OUTWARD BOUND.

ok back on track!
obs for me! WAS FUN! XD WAS DISGUSTING! BUT WHO CARES! XD
heeheee ok im contradicting my self day 2 or day 3 i was dying to go home but last day i want to overstay in pulau ubin.. X( I MISS MAURICETTE!! AND BARKER 2008!

heehee ok Barker watch was fun. and KK thx for the FOOD! :D and JUNYING thx for helping me with the bamboo shoots. some sun of EWKS it stinks THX sandra and meijuan and BLAHLBHALBHA ALOTALOTALOT oh ya thx ven mymy oso ! XD and ALOTALOTALOT... I canot say le or i cry again -- aiyo the friday i was back i was emo-ing to myself writing in the paper :( hahahaha ok ive started appreciating stuff when i was back. lets talk about the floor
when i was back i feel like i was standing on ice

AND i cant believe it. the first night i got home i slept walk downstairs and slept on the cold hard floor then i woke up at 555 -.- oh shittttttttttt i duno why, OMGGG im OBS-SSESSED! :D

aiya i really tired now. SHITS i want to SLEEP X( HAHAAH! ok i shall continue this tomorrow :D

TO BE CONTINUED..............................

2008-01-29T08:05:00.000-08:00

OK allow me TO LET OFF THE STEAM ACCUMULATED FROM MATHS

firstly. i want to cry it out loud.
WHY is it that hao xin mei you hao bao de.
WHY IS IT that when pple approach u for help u really help them from the bottom of your heart.
WHY IS IT that when the helpful and always helps really needs help?
WHO WILL HELP?
WHO WILL?
WHO will sit down patiently and explain to u?

Really. theres no one.
THERES NOBODY ON CAN REALLY RELY ON FOR HELP
all the others are jus plain dead.
or rather acting dead.
returns my pleas with LOLs or I GTG le. or jus disappear offline.
i noe that theres function that is called appear off9
yea thnks so much guys.
now i noe that it doesnt pay to help.
who the hell cares about when u need help.

yea. my lesson
and i jolly well learnt it.
nvm whoever it is go on watching ur TeeVee
go on watching ur on9 dramas
go on watching ur own cds
go on and wallow in your enjoyment.

i dont care.
i cant even help my self.
so why the fck should i help u nex time u nid help'?
why is it that when i really give help sincerely
nobody returns that kind of help to me.

thank you debbie for helping me so much
thank you deb's fren for helping me so much
although i not so familiar with you ..

and to those, i really salute u.
thx for giving me the lesson i learnt
IT NEVER PAYS TO BE KIND.
thankyou so much.
i appreciate it.
and sometime in the near future.
expect the same treatment
its tit for tat.

don't say that i'm heartless.
I AM
BECAUSE U ARE
and to those that aren't
i amm ALWAYS WILLING TO HELP

AND LASTLY. i jus want to say i really cant stand maths
i've been crying everytime i do my math
i really dont know how to do it
i dont know why the cher is teaching so fast
YEA jus get the school to expel mi
i cant keep up with the maths.
i cant keep up with the other geniuses
i am jus stupid and dumb at maths
i know u hate me
yea i noe that too
when i ask u Qns
u take as i;ve nvr touched the frickin thing at all
U ARE WRONG
so u are happy if i crap up a whole piece of crap and ask u with that crap?
yea u jus mean that i am crap
yea i am, do i look like i care.
actually i really care. I WANT to do well for maths
why do u strive to remove the very last bit of the little joy i can hardly find in math?
ya pls make me not clear my EOY for math this yr.

i cant see the frickin pract use of math.
how much quadratics can u use in real life.
YEA jus for that stinking few marks the exams gives u
I REALLY ADMIRE THE SCHOOLING SYSTEM
THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE GREAT EFFORT IN THE CURRICULUM
i REALLLLLLYYYYYY LOVVVEEEEEE IIITTTTTTTTT

cramming everything together and putting together a whole new subject that has no meaning
YeA, wad the fck do u see in it.
YEA, COMPARISON to other educational posts.
YEA, SO HIGH RANKED.
to u i'm jus the black sheep out of the whole sea of white.
thank you so much for giving me that realisation.
i'm on the verge of stop trying.
i'm tired of your contempt against me.
yea i couldnt clear the damn paper last yr
but can u stop giving me that frickin face
like i'm this great big idiot?
i noe basic math.
and jus because i didnt bring my calculator for the Quiz.
u shout me out of the class to borrow.

I HAVE BRAINS TOO
I CAN THINK
I CAN INFER TOO
IF U DON LIKE ME
SAY IT OUT LOUD IN FRONT OF MI.

my inability of enjoying math is partly u who fail to convey the fun in it to me.
the test is also on u
I"M SORRY FOR BRINGING DOWN THE STANDARD IN UR CLASS
throw me out.
write to the school management.
make them kick me out.
i'm really apologectic abt bring down the standard of marks in ur class.
NO marks. NO talk right.
don worry.
i'm very streetsmart
i can jolly well survive wholesomely without the frickin mental abuse of maths.

at the end of the day
don eveybody just die.
why make such misery out of the little years left of life..
i hate the world.
i hate everything
NOBODY really smiles at me sincerely anymore.
NOBODY really gives u help sincerely anymore.
NOBODY is really bothered and willing to help u.
they would rather throw u out.
YEA i noe that.

@ the end of the day,
i've only got me to help me.

2008-01-07T11:37:00.000-08:00

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a little read on horoscope :] realised its very true

2007-11-23T04:52:00.000-08:00

hUi:

hihi all...

i am

-sneezing

-wheezing

-coughing

-feverish

-tired

-jus woke up 1/2 hour ago

conclusion: hUi is sick.

and i read something my fren sent me. i wonder how she EVER knew. :D

but this horoscope thing is TRUe really. really clicks.

Well... if u are a GEMINI! pls. tag me. :)

Cancer & Gemini

When Gemini and Cancer come together in a love affair, it may be a rather curious relationship. Sensitive, emotional Cancer has trouble communicating clearly (click!), but clear communication is what defines Gemini. Gemini's chivalrous nature and silver tongue may encourage the Crab to come out of its shell more quickly than usual; Cancer, in turn, can teach Gemini to slow down and appreciate the world, which the frenetic Twins hardly ever take time to do. If Gemini seems to ignore Cancer or doesn't provide them with as much reassurance and intimacy as Cancer needs, trouble may ensue. These two Signs approach the world in such different manners that they must be able to understand and accept one another's differences.

Cancer is the Sign of home and hearth, while Gemini is the thinker. Gemini can easily slip into the role of Cancer's knight in shining armor; Cancer returns that favor with their characteristic urge to protect the ones they love. Quality of home life is important to Cancer, and Gemini will be spoiled by their Cancer lover's hearty home cooking, soft bed and other creature comforts. Cancer is strongly intuitive and maintains an almost psychic connection with their loved ones, but can tend toward possessiveness and idealization of their Gemini partner. If Gemini just reassures Cancer that they're loved and cherished, all will go smoothly.

Gemini is ruled by the Planet Mercury (Communication) and Cancer is ruled by the Moon (Emotions). Cancer tends to keep their emotions bottled up inside as they have trouble expressing themselves. They envy Geminis their gift of open, clear communication afforded by the influence of Mercury. Gemini, in turn, can benefit from Cancer's intuitive approach, so different from Gemini's bubbly, surface nature; Cancer can teach Gemini to slow down and appreciate life instead of passing by the good things in their rush to get to the next new thing.

Gemini is an Air Sign and Cancer is a Water Sign. If these two Signs can work together they can be a great team; after all, the best decisions are made by incorporating the emotions and the intellect. The trouble for these two lies in learning to cooperate. They come from such opposite points of view that at times it can seem as if they simply have nothing in common. Deep, emotional Cancer can also sometimes dampen Gemini's airy enthusiasm, and light, fast-paced Gemini can leave Cancer feeling ruffled, even tattered. Balance can be achieved if they learn to talk openly with one another.

Gemini is a Mutable Sign and Cancer is a Cardinal Signs. Gemini is flexible, willing to go with the flow and follow another's lead; Cancer is an initiator and likes to provide that lead. Gemini may try to lead by being brave, even confrontational; for it to run smoothly between these two, they both need to learn when to back down and let the other lead the way.

What's the best aspect of the Gemini-Cancer relationship? Once they realize they're allies, they can soar to great heights together. Gemini is always thinking ahead and Cancer is quietly supporting these ideas behind the scenes. Each partner's ability to provide what the other is lacking makes theirs a fulfilling relationship.

~End~

believe me or not.its really TRUE :] i wonder who's my predestined Gemini

welll... i want to have dinner now , get some food in my system and the medicine.

and poof. i will be hitting the sack ;D

wel.. sleep! so, if you are a gemini, drop me a tag! :)

offfordinnar,

Me.

zuilangmandeshi

2007-11-16T19:52:00.000-08:00

2007-11-15T23:25:00.000-08:00

我今天实在是没有心情。

你们可能说是小事，一点意义都没有。可是你实在是大错特错了。虽然是我的猫不见了，但它就像我的家人一样。不，我不想哭。我的心在哭。大猫，你在那里？

我真的很想你，大家都在说你可能死了、给车撞死了、病死了。。。
我知道你一定会回来。回来吧、好吗？

我很抱歉，我以前时常回误会你，偏心。我真的很疼你，人常说养猫没有用，它不会看门
你不一样，你很活泼、很好动、你给人的印象是一只很有气质、很有灵性的动物。
在我心中，你不只是一只猫，你就好似家人。少了你，家人都在想念你。
每天早上，你都会第一个跑来打招呼。甚至是车都还没有到你就把守在门口了。
若你，真的死了。你一辈子都会活在我的心目中。

你瘦了，比小黑还要轻。你的毛发都掉了很多了。
不知道是不是黑狗那天，把你追到树上，让你淋雨受寒。

有时我晚上非要把你关在房里，是我实在是不放心你出去。
我害怕你受伤。
我害怕你被够追。
我害怕你被人欺负。
我害怕你被人抱走。
我害怕你因为天气寒冷，躲藏在车子的engine里面。

我怕会失去你。。。。。。。。。。

我不想失去你。我也知道寻人启示是没用的。

我后悔没有紧紧的抱过你。我后悔没有给你好好的抓痒。
我回很珍惜你所给予我的美好回忆。
我非常谢谢你所给我的教训。
我回一辈子都记得你的。

我实在是写不下去了。。。泪水流了好多了.

我相信世界上发生在每个人的身上的事情都是有原因的。
没有任何事情是偶然的，
没有任何意见事情是凑巧的，
上天安排了我从遇到你
到捡你回家
到求父母亲收养你
到你生了小猫
到你老的时候

我从你身上所学到的东西
比任何的学习场合还多,
多过一堂没有意义的学校的课程

学校，是什么。
不见得学校回教会你去欣赏
每一件事情、
每一位身边的朋友、
每一个人身的关口、

我不会了一张没有意思的成绩单而折腰
我不会为了肉体物质的享受而陪上我心灵的自由
的解放。

谢谢你所给予我的每一个回忆
我会认真的珍惜他的。

我爱你，我的心里永远都有你在。
不管你是死是活。
我依然爱你。
我不时疯狂
这叫做真正的珍惜
我现在会更珍惜我身边的一切。

我希望你还活着
回来吧。

Choral & Drama Night 2007 (7th November)

2007-11-07T07:44:00.000-08:00

hUi:
.
Yo Yo YO! :) Reporting from 201'07 LIVE!
Today's C & D was a SUCCESS!!!
*****And firstly i wish to express my sincere thanks! to those 2 frens that came today! :)
really grateful! But not when u said : yea, the evil woman..
UH HUH! I AM SUPPOSED TO BE A MAN!!! A MAN!!!!!

201'B M2 (M square): Mental Musical!
*
Our 2 Sassy Nurses!
# Janelle aka Kway teow :]
# Pinki! :]
Our MUSIC DIRECTOR!~ hey those who watched this! ur in luck! we hav this super pianist playing LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
$ NO OTHER THAN! DEAREST PAK CIK MARIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
^XinHui.....................Cellist (Mr. Yong XB heehee)
- Chih Chih!...........Cellist de Laopo (Mrs. Yong)
- Bandung!.............Cellist de fren! (the one that recently broke up wif gf xD)
^Qian Lin..................Guitarist
- Tingyi..................Guitarist's Step-Daddy
- Xuean..................Guitarist's Mommie
- Kangyan..............Guitarist's Step-Brother
^Sze Ling...................Er Hu Player
- YongTong :P.......Brother 1, snatched the erhu
- WaiWai!...............Brother 2, holding back Lingling
^Chiaia!!....................MAH DEAR DANCER! :]
- Me........................The WONDERFUL MANAGER!

HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ I'm so SAD! :/
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz i got laughed at. :/ you know when i wuz about to enter the stage. standing by the wings :] I WUZ SO NERVOUS then i felt like... like ..like ...like ...like ...like going to the loo :]. But thing kind kind kind kind senior from theatre club. told me i can use the bin .. of course . SHES JOKING
and anyway i was not going to pee aniwae :p AND!
- Entering Sequence.
: Tingyi
: YongTong! XD (oh yea. yongyong will kill mi if she sees this name :P heeeheexDD)
: ChihChih
: Wai Tiem
: Xue An
: Darling MI
: DEAREST DONGDONG :)
*
HAIZ
i waz trying my best to peep through the curtains.. when i realised xuean wauz out. I went out THEN A ROAR OF LAUGHTER OR RATHER GIGGLES CAME AUGH! == AND i had to scold the audience..............................................................................IT WAs SO. i dunno how to say : ) And . WOW. I WAS SO SHAKY. and my bathrobe almost dropped off please. :) then as i walked. AND WALKED continuing with my madness. I was to shout and scold without sound. :/
And SCOLD THE AUDIENCE WOWWWEEEEEEEE ! :]
and i was so COLd when it was my turn :) I took off my robe and took a last peeeeeekkkie at my script that was doubling as a contract. and i heard : "Hey.. is it the script!@!!??? " X_X I could just die on the spot.. but halfway throughout the play before my part some where between Qianlin's Part. heehee i was getting cold feet... XDD stage fright BUT i COOLED Off ! Yea! xD Then it all came naturally to me :] So... i just acted! : ) heehee the audi is REALLY cold. After i took off my robe. ohMIGOSH it was cold! haha and i tot how chiaia is freezing heehee in her dancy clothes! :) seriously! Dear Chiaia! : ] ur figure really VERY VERY VERYYYY GOOD! o.o really look like catwoman! XD shen cai hao hao yeh! oh course, i not a jeekopek :) heehee you gave some eyecandy to audience harh! x) wo men shi tian shen yi dui yeh! xD hahahahahahaha i loved the show! :) i TOTALLY LURVE LURVE LUVEDDDED IT! :D and heh heh . @ rehearsal it was like the teacher kept correcting me from A-KAD-DERMY to a-CARE-dermie :) in the morn. AND WOW, i kept saying the wrong thing :/
*
And my dear dancer, helped mi remember by a-cat-de-mi :) wow! but i still scared i'll say the wrong thing. SO. i said Cha-cha dance school. AND HEY!
it wasnt kind to laugh man!!!XD heehee and i spotted some teeko giggles when i said maintain the figure eh! D: haha :D a good laught man! xD and I ?HATE MAKE UP
=.= ok. i did put make up ALOT OF TIMES SIA. and wowee the starlights in the changing rooms were STUNNING and also STUNNINGLY WARM SIA! and then the air-conditioner QUITTED ON US.. WADDEHELL
and IT WAS like a sauna. /: heehee
loveleeeeee! wow and the makeup when i first put heehee jen jen put too much blusher on one side. then i REALISED I CAN REALLY MAKE THINGS PRETTY IF I PUT MY HEART & SOUL INTO IT! :) Ask our sassy nurses Janellleleee! XD haha i putted LOTs n LOTs of <3 into ur tying of the bouquets! and i got a GREAT BIG SHOCK SIA!!!! Claire.. u killed some of my nerves. haiz :X :D haha when i saw u vampire teeth and the face painted bloody. == XDDd
hhaha i really had a gREAT GREAT SHOCK!! :) and i also put alot of heart and soul into your daisy/gerberra :) hope you really like it! :) *** will be posting some pictures of the flowers i wrapped!! : ) today i have to thankie xinhui also! hahahaha and the great fighting games i played on hui yings psp portable!! XD GuiltyGears GXX! :) WOWWEEEE it did relieved lots n LOTS of stressss!! :) hahahahahahahahahaAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA mi and yong hwang was fighting to kill the dizzy gal! XDDD WAHAHAHAHAHHA So proud of me self.. at first. i was playing scooby doo..haunted house but it all got toooooooo freakie and i didnt know how to do the controls and the blue phantom kept shooting me blue orbs ... == and i got so freaky and the music WAS SOOOO freaky oso i turned it off and play GGX! :) whoa ROX sia! :)
***
and then after the performance! it turned into us running up to the changing rooms. and when i was all high about it being over! :) it was rather melancholic D: like... this is the last performance already SOBZZZZZ!!! :'( Like nex yr we will be in all different classes! ;/ i'm so sad now. BUT ITS THE MEMORIES that we created together amd it will be cherished! :)
*
201'07 Book of memories is always in my heart. I remember everyone. and it will be the same even when we are old and old and older :)

***

Ok this has no special meaning! just a meaningful song heard on TV commercial :] The celestial jewellery commercial:

* Fly me to the moon

and let me play among the stars

let me see what spring is like

on Jupiter & Mars

*In other words

please be true

In other words

i love you! :)

WoW, wat a meaningful song! :] i'm so happy today!

***
AND I ABSOLUTELY IS IN LOVE WITH FLOWERS! :) CACA! i'm glad u like the flowers!!!! XD i put alot of heart and soul into it!! and i wrapped so many flowers today! :) 10 gerberras is only SGD$3.oo/- :) love it. and 201a! you all ROCKS TOO!! hahahahahahaah :) lovely..

***

Where is the love (The love)

Where is the loveThe love,

the loveIt just ain't the same,

always unchanged

New days are strange,

is the world insane

If love and peace is so strong

Why are there pieces of love that don't belong

Nations droppin' bombs

Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones

With the ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young

So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone

So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong

In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'in

Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends

Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother

A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover

The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug

If you never know truth then you never know love

Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)

Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)

Where's the love, y'allPeople killin', people dyin'

Children hurt and you hear them cryin'

Can you practice what you preach

And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us

Send us some guidance from above'

Cause people got me, got me questionin'

Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)

Where is the loveThe love, the loveI feel the weight of the world on my shoulder

As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder

Most of us only care about money makin'

Selfishness got us followin' our own direction

Wrong information always shown by the media

Negative images is the main criteria

Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria

Kids act like what they see in the cinemaYo',

whatever happened to the values of humanity

Whatever happened to the fairness in equality

Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity

Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity

That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under

That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down

There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under

Gotta keep my faith alive to lovers bound

People killin', people dyin'Children hurt and you hear them cryin'

Can you practice what you preach

And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help usSend us some guidance from above'

Cause people got me, got me questionin'

Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)

Lovely aint it!

Another nice song to share, meaningful and really lovely!:

Poets often use many words

To say a simple thing.

It takes thought and time and rhyme

To make a poem sing.

With music and words I've been playing

For you, I have written a song.

To be sure that you'll know what I'm saying,

I'll translate as I go along...

Fly me to the moon,

And let me play among the stars.

Let me see what spring is like

On Jupiter and Mars.

In other words,

Hold my hand.

In other words,

Darling, kiss me.

Fill my heart with song,

And let me sing forever more.

You are all I long for,

All I worship and adore.

In other words,

Please be true.

In other words,

I love you.

~interlude~

Fill my heart with song,

And let sing forever more.

You are all I long for,

All I worship and adore.

In other words

Please be true.

In other words,

I love you.

****

***

We remember.. All the times we, spent together.. The happy memories in my mind cannot be finished typing out on this blog n post. :) these memories are never ending and the emotions are overflowing :] ok, i shall go wash my make up off and take a bath cos i REALLY am Stinking :) a sauna with a shirt, coat and e bathrobe :) you will surely stink :] kk

: ) GOOD NIGHT! & leave a tag!

So much love,

hUi

2007-10-02T09:27:00.000-07:00

:) teehee! ok! I AM GOING TO SLEEP NOW! :) wish me the best! xD

4 down! 7 to go!

2007-10-02T06:26:00.000-07:00

hUi:

This is hUi reporting LIVE from reality to BlogChannel news.

Tropical depression LA Paper1 had just passed over calmly. However, in such weather, the eye of another storm, History07' that already passed us safely not longer that 24 hours or lesser ago.

Not longer than a few many hours ago, Tropical Storm, CLC paper 1 & 2 had okay-ly passed us.
We are left with 7 more storms ahead.

However, the Weather Observatory warns all of the NYGH Secondary 2 students about the great Hurricane IM's passing. Tomorrow @ exactly 1000 hours more or less, the eye of the storm is going to pass us, the eye of this great storm is calculated to last @ least 45 minutes. Please be informed to always stay indoors and keep ur head full of the laws of indics.
~
@ 1200 hours more or less, Hurricane IM(integrated maths) is calculated to end.
~
Still then, please keep ur curve ruler and pencils + calculators + extra batteries! ON THE GLOBE!
~
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the weather forecast for tonight updated @ exactly 2135 hours is cloudly and average temperature in Singapore is 29DegreesCelsius / 25DegreesCelsius.
~
Forecasted weather tomorrow would be Stormy in the morning. As humongous cumulumnimbus clouds are sighted in the skies of Singapore, tomorrow will be a very cool day with heavy morning rain. If you are due for exams or work early, please be reminded to leave your homes early to beat that early jam-about-to-be-made-worse-by-RAIN+HUrricane IM.
Average Temperature will be within 24DegreesCelsius / 29DegressCelsius.
~
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Please be reminded that there are more impending storms sighted ahead other than tomorrow "3rd October".
~And here, dedicated to all People going to through Hurricane IM my best wishes. Do your best!
------------------------------------------WeatherReportBreak---------------------------------
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PS: after tomorrow there will be 6 down, 5 to go
after tomorrowx2 there will be 8 down, 3 to go
after tomorrowx3 there will be 9 down, 2 to go
after tomorrowx4 is a day of ---REST----
after tomorrowx5 is a day of ---REST----
after tomorrowx6 there will be 10 down, 1 MORE to go!*for those livin in AEP07'201region)
after tomorrowx7 there will 11 down, NO MORE TO GO! :)
~ HAIL TOWARDS FREEDOM!
all the best.
This is the best wishes from your dearest reporter hUi reporting live on BlogChannel.
Weather forecasts fresh from the observatory will be reported daily.
All residents are reminded to keep calm till the end of the Storms.
Till then, please keep on hitting the books and getting plenty of rest, drinking plenty of water!
~
Au Revoir!*~
hUi

**many thanks to JenJen! xD Original creator of the title! All rights reserved! XD

End of Years are coming to town! ~

2007-09-29T22:11:00.000-07:00

hUi:

Ok! Today's finally the day!

Tomorrow there will be 2 monsters to beat up!

<- As u can see here! Under 1st Oct's papers! :)

So, Wish me the best!

If so, Drop a TAG! :)

Lots of LoVe,

hUi *~

PS: Good Luck for your own EOYs too! :)

nice huh! x)

2007-09-29T01:54:00.001-07:00

A Bottle of Snapple, A Pint of Milk, And i'm off and ready to hit the books

2007-09-29T01:20:00.000-07:00

hUi:

The title rhymes huh? : )
Well well, that reminds me of compo tomorrow's tomorrow. Well, only a few hours more to a dying experience.

I suffering a headache now. I'm feeling mad. and STRESSED up.
Well. Mugged for history. A mugger i am now... WELL. I'm tired. I'm off to have a little nap.
I'll be nice like a non-metal (teehee) and share a piece of random info:

I study well on rainy days.

Yesyes on rainy days

No no, don't get the wrong idea

I'm not a saddist

Well i hate saddists stuff

Its all because i study well on rainy days

Because ITS COLD

BECAUSE ITS DARK

Because of the cumulunimbus clouds

known as storm clouds.

you can tell them apart from its Dark anvil shape, just like a mushroom

and cumulumnimbus clouds aka storm clouds,

can hold up to 6 trillion raindrops

And rain is good

Cause it will be cold

Cause it will be dark

the heavier it rains, the happier i get

The perfect weather for a mugfest to take place

MugFest= Mugging Festival

In my dear living room

there i will sitting on the chairman position

hitting the books and hopefully ready to lick the world

Not pessimistic you get the wrong idea.

Its just that i love rainy days

(raindays... sounds familiar.. CACA! thats ur guild! xD)

Rainy days are dark

where cumulumnimbus clouds gather and pour down great heavy rains

And occasionally a sudden bolt of lightning will strike the roof

A sudden rush of GREAT big currents rushes down into the circuits of your house.

AND BLAM

Blows a fuse

Not to worry, Singapore's electricity wirings are very SAFE!

All you have to do is to find that sweet little box

Electrical box, with a sweet little glove over your sweet little hand and turn up that awfully sweet master fuse or watisit that sweet little name.

And sweet little electricity will sweetly flow back again.

And a little random information

Physicists made a mistake

That current only flows in one direction

BAM, its false.

Current flows in 2 directions

out from the positve and

also out from the negative too

from the sweet little dry cell.

Well, what measure Current?

Ampere, is it? Am i right?

YEs its ampere.

you measure current with a Ammeter

YES!

And...wat measure resistance

YEs, little ohms measure resistance

Electromotive Force (e.m.f) is akin to Potential Difference

random huh?

WHAtever

i'm in muggin mode. : )

k. Love ya allz.

I going to sleep now.

A little nap :)

4.37pm now

This little girl crushed with the weight of the world on the shoulders

will be up and recharged and ready to lick the world and hit the books once again

at 6.00pm

PS: a bit more random info to share

Cumulumnimbus clouds are dangerous too

because of the terrible turbulence within the clouds.

Planes are equipped with anti-lightning sheilds

Planes are also equipped with Radar Meters to keep track the clouds ahead

and plausibly avoid cumulumnimbus clouds

In planes, There are 3 types of pilots working to gether

The captain, the co-captain and the Auto-pilot

:) Planes are very modernised and i really feel like going overseas!

Well what a time to feel like going overseas.

I'm going to learn alot of stuff after the EOYs

I'm going for speech lessons at the media school as enrichment after EOYs(well. hopefully!)

:) this PS is dragging on so long. One More random info to share!

How many types of nationalism are there?

CCDERRN!

Cive nationalism

Cultural Nationalism

Diaspora Nationalism

Ethnic Nationalism

Religious Nationalism

Romantic Nationalism

National Identity also Nationalism!

Ok after a bit of history,

comes abit of BIology

Wellwell.

AlexTeoCuteGuy

Adenine Thymine Cytosine Guanine

: )

all these makes up the DNA thread known simply as the Double Helix!

These 4 makes up the Double helix, other than the protein backbone. Is it?

Well well. another piece of random info

Bone Marrow

Heard of it?

well , i think YOU should HAVE heard of it b4

Bone marrow . IS NOT A BONE! x)

Why?

its section a bone which is located in your lower spine.

It is a bone called bone marrow!

It contains White blood cells

WBC can be distinguished by its Messy Nucleus (well i cant bother to describe it nicely!)

Bone marrow also "creates" red blood cells and also blood platelets. =_+

After all this randomness.

i've decided.

Its already 4.48

i wanted to sleep at 4.37

see how much i love you guys?

enriching your young minds full of enquiring knowledge

Widening your area of General Knowledge.

OK, this lovable girl here typing all this NEEDs to sleep

Wasted another 1 minute

Ok, i'm not EGO!

Fine' i'll go sleep

byebye

This tired girl crushed with the heavy weight of EOYs has finally left to get some sleep

: ) Signing off. x) me!

See how much i love you guys! i even attached a photo of the bone marrow!

TAG if you love me and you appreciate it. And i'll love you from the bottom of my heart! x)

::..PostingAgain..:::

2007-09-27T08:27:00.001-07:00

hUi:

hihihihihihi...

still cannot sleep yet. sleeping soon. in 5 more minutes. which mins 5 more mins to blog here. OK, this dead blog in alive once again.

However, poor me here is not alive.

~*When will i ... live again...*~

not confident for my EOYs.

What will i do when its too late.

too late to regret.

too late to start afresh

@))* is my chance

my chance to start afresh

throwing away all the addictions

as hard as i can

I will try my best. i will do my best

but i cannot promise it beautiful

a beautiful marksheet

i cannot promise.

yet i cannot deny that i did play a fool

thinking that i can slink by somehow

but its true that i cant

Or i can if i really try.

my aEp prep's almost done

with a few more drawings.

Maths can slink by

after my revision

i realised i can do my indices

Bio's fun but not easy

yet i have read it all.. read it all

Physics boring but its easy to score

but its really not easy for me

after all that falling asleep

F=ma that's all i remember

Parallel or series all in circuits

wire it all into my brain

into the circuit with a highly tolerant fuse

Hope i don't fuse during exams.

Brainy circuit please don't die out on me

Chem is complicated but its easy to score

like they always say

its in that table

in that periodic table when its always provided

*~*

so lets all remember it this way:

M____M

( = . = )

Groups show you your valence electrons

like how your schoolwork groupmates are to you.

they are the ones to see if you lose it or not (your mind. teehee)

that one valence electron....

......

1-3 they will usually lose it

4 will occur as covalent bonds

5-7 usually they gain

while 8 are the inerts

cause they have the lovely 8 (Octet configuration)

......

Periods are not those that comes every month..

They show you how many shells you have

like those vascularised layers you shed every month!

only a girl will know! (cheeky grin)

if the period number is bigger

that means there more shells

means that its easier to lose electrons instead

cause the valence are too far away

the van de woaa forces are too weak.

Teehee! do you know why ionic bonds occur..

only between metals and non-metals

cause metals have metallic pride

hard and shiny and hard to break

"Don't hurt my pride"

"take it (e electron) or leave it..."

Do you know why Covalent bonds occur..

only between non-metals and non-metals?

cause they are unlike from metals.

Friendly like me

nice like me!

!!!

WE CAN ALWAYS SHARE

Thats' all folks!

2007-09-26T11:18:00.000-07:00

17 posts, last publish may 07

DMN DMN DMN DMN! ITS LIKE HOW MANY SHIT DAYS TO EOYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THREE! EXCLUDING TODAY!
24x3=?? (if i dun get it i can forget about my Integrated Math EOYs )

24x3= 72!! and... 72 hours! ITS 72 HOURS. minus the time u sleep which is like 10?

10hrs of sleep per day is... 10x3= 30!! 72-30=?? ans: 42!!!

** minus the time u bath n eat or just plainly slacking away sumwhere????
fine, i enforce DICTATORSHIP. & declare a state of EMERGENCY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DISCIPLINE's the word, ABSOLUTE discipline. (history, here's wat we learn from the Communist revolution in the malayas 1954. gosh. am i right?? DAMN i not even surE!)

lets just make it ... 2 hours????? 2x3 is???? 6!!!!

42-6? = 36!!!!!
*** minus the XYZ BISHY BASHY time in school????

36- 14= ?? ans: 22 hours?!!?!?!
****minus traveling time??? 1hour! 1x3=3!

22-3=!? 19!
NINETEEN HOURS TO REALLY STUDY FOR GODDAMN SHIT SUBJECT!
AND. I haven finish the aep prep! and half of it is SOGGY , idropped my soup on it. CLEVER RIGHT>>??????????

so .. how many XYZ hours to EOYS?
HOW are EOYS gonnna XYZ ME!
It hasnt been rainiing for DAYS N DAYS! AND DAMNIT I STUDY well on rainy days!
AND damnit, change the likes. I CANT STAND LANG ARTS. ITS TOTALLY BLEH

I CANT STAND IT!

SOMEONE XYZ ME !

THe girl which finally felt the heat of EOYs. when she's really left with 19 hours to mug.
=/
- has left to get some sleep

Boohoo...i'm having a terrible headache

2007-05-12T22:07:00.000-07:00

today i read something... thought alot... and cried alot

2007-05-12T11:24:00.000-07:00

Well. its so late at night
haha
And i realised we're so different. haha
don't feel like talking so much, haiz. i neglected my blog so much. haha
i don't even rmbr wat blog was carol talking about when she said some idiot
from 6i (hahaa... probably not really an idiot la)
tagged me on my tagboard.

Haahahahahahaha.. too bad i wasnt online.. hahahahahaha
lend a shoulder or lend a ear
hahaha
not transplant haha.

"coop"ing

2006-10-26T09:37:00.000-07:00

Today, i felt angry, or rather i was quite put off when one of my friends started to "coop" my songs. its not like i'm unwilling to share. but it is my principle that if you want something, jolly well tell me right in the face and not secretly go behind my back to copy the file and upload it.

If it was you who took in the trouble to find it to buy it, i would like to ask one Qn,

HOW WOULD YOU FEEL.

2006-10-24T09:41:00.000-07:00

Polina Seminova( with lyrics)

Beautiful song.Gorgeous choreography.perfect piroutte

Breakaway

2006-10-21T09:37:00.000-07:00

hUi:

[Chorus:]I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes
til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

how does this song sounds to u? well, i find this very uplifting and inspiring.
i heard this song on the bus when i was on the bus home from disappionting school, it was the song tht was turned up so loud by this lady beside me, then i heard it. It's really very uplifting, i nearly teared when i heard...

the chorus: I'll spread my winds & I'll learn how to fly, i'll do what it takes till i touch the sky...

well, sometimes when disappointment falls into our lives, i guess it's time to learn to find our wings and heal it if its broken. to me, everybody's a angel, some with their wings outspread and flying, some not so well, some broken emotionally, some broken... physically.

I'll spread my wings. - I'll pick myself out of disappointment,
& i'll learn how to fly - i'll learn, i make up and not cry over spilt milk
i'll do what it takes - I'll put in my heart and soul
till i touch the sky - I'll reach my goal.

If i hadnt heard this song, i probably would not have mustered up the courage to face harsh reality. well... just think that you've been through more shit than this! ;D

Well, best wishes to all!

Truly...
hUi

fArty mAths

2006-10-10T18:24:00.000-07:00

hUi
Hi! Farty maths is over, well at least half is over... fArty maths and aerty farty art are really a pair. u nowe the subjects arwe REALLYU AUGH!!!!!!!

2006-10-08T21:26:00.000-07:00

hUi,
Haha! aRty & fArty exam is finally over!`its a day to rejoice! where is my wine? where is my bread? Party TIME!!!!
Yet today was also a major bummer... WAT THE HELL!! i dint know that lkb will test us on glossary keywords! What a creepo ticko.
^.^ >.<>:)

two left...

2006-10-06T18:13:00.000-07:00

hUi

EoY's are finally going to come to a closure. With only aRt & mAth left, i believe it will be a sort of breeze for all... hehe

Why do we students need to do math? Even if the numbers you count, they are still NUMBERS!!! I am willing to take language papers but if it is chem... physics... math.... sorry, no thanks. Language i believe is the most versatile tool alive in this world, it is running in every body's blood pumping out of their hearts. If not, how do i post on this?

Speaking of the aRt exam... i think with a brain like mine, i will flunk it.
What is Romanticsm?
What is Neo-classiscm?
What is Realism?
What is Impressionism?
What is Cubism?

These are the aRt movements... but if this keeps up, i think we students will start a revolutionary movement call Depressionism, or Suicidalism. Is it? haha, just kidding... =P

Hai... this is so depressing... One after another, one blow after another, this is becoming hecticly exhausting both physically and emotionally... Last time in primary school, everything was so well-planned, suffice time in grasping concept, suffice time in practiscing concept, yet, now... everything is so constrained, time & all. Even the covering of syllabus is very very very rushed. But often i would wish to turn back and ask the teachers, is this what they call learning? is this the spirit of learning? No, i do not think so. I think i am those type who will only live & learn the way i want it, if i know i have a better advantage in Language, i'll do language, improving and emphasizing my best point, instead of choosing something like sciences and math.

Sigh... what can i do? :) !!Dont worry ** Be happy!!

inspiration

2006-10-05T09:38:00.000-07:00

hUi (fire, fire, thats my fire... passion, passion, thats my passion!) =D ( ", )

haiz... it has been a hellweek for me... haha End of yrs are finally going to be over... what have i left...

-Science
-AeP
-IntegRatEdmAth...

well i just saw somevideos that my friend sent me.. when she's a dancer... and i really got vry inspred when i saw the vdeos... it is about these 3 amazing ballerinas, they are friends and dancers too. they were so controlled so strong and veryvery elegant... haha their incredible flexibility also made me faint... it was just so awe-inspiring.... i dunno whats the name called but its something like a jump split... she is just so light in her jumps... Wow! its almost like a feather dancing to the music. and when they do the turning... i was like... omG!!!!! how do they ever turn like that?!!!

haha that's why this post is named inspiration.. i've been wondering.. what exactlyis a pointe? is it u stand on the tip of your toes or is it on the big toe nail??? hehe.. hai... maybe those pple who knows me will find it unbelievable.. but deep in my heart i actually would be very willing to learn u know ballet... so embarrassing.... hai... i'm quite heavy too...hehe so if i ever dance, i think the stage will break or something, or even cause the plate tectonics to go into crazy convergence, divergence and transformance! hehe... oh ya, tomorrow's Sciences EOY.... wish me luck! =D maybe after today's exam i may drop in another post or something! :D

***the fat dancer is for if i ever break a stage
***beautiful dancer was the inspiring one that i rattled about earlier on! :D

gOoD LuCk to all esp... -those crazy one~o'~oners' (hehe.. not really la if really is i also crazy!)
-my friends in other schools that are taking EOYs too!!!

PS: if i ever break the stage... i'll post about it!!! ok?? keep it a secret.... okay? okay. =D

Lyrics! ^.^

2006-09-24T21:17:00.000-07:00

Sarangingayo (Perhaps Love)

the song lyrics and translation for the theme of Goong.

lyrics-- eNjOy!!
onje oddon gonji, giok najiana
jakku ne moriga noro ojiropdun shijak
handu beon shik ddo orundon seng gak
jakku nurogaseo jogum danghwang suroun imaum

byol il i anilsu itdago sasohan maum irago
nega nege jakku malul hanunge osekhangol
sarangingayo? gude nawa gatdamyun shijakingayo?
mam i jakku gudael saranghandeyo!
onsesang i dud dorok sorichineyou...
whe ijeya dulijyo!
sorol man nagi wihe, ijeya sarang chajatda go...

jigum ne maumul solmyung haryo hedo
niga nega dweo mamul nukkinun bangbob ppuninde
imi nan niane itnun gol
ne ane niga itdushi
oorin soroege (soroege)
imi gilduryojin ji molra
sarangingayo? gude nawa gatdamyun shijakingayo?
mam i jakku gudael saranghandeyo!
onsesang i dud dorok sorichineyou...
whe ijeya dulijyo!
sorol man nagi wihe, ijeya sarang chajatda go...

jigun ne maumul seolmyung haryo hedo
niga nega dweo mamul nukki nun bangbup bbun inde

imi nan niane itnun geol
neane niga itdushi
oorin seoro ege
imi gilduro jinji molra
sarangingayo? gude nawa gatdamyun shijakingayo?
mam i jakku gudael saranghandeyo!
onsesang i dud dorok sorichineyou...
whe ijeya dulijyo!
sorol man nagi wihe, ijeya sarang chajatda go...
sengak he bomyun manun soongan sok e
olmana manun soleim itsutnunji
jogun nujun gu mankum nan do jalhe joolkke yo
hamkke halkke yo, chuok i dwel giok man seonmulhalkke yo
dashin ne gyeoteso ddonaji mayo
jjalbun soongan jocha do bulanhan geolyo
nege momulo joyo.
gudel iroke mani, sarang hago itsoyo
imi....

translation--
when or where it is, I don't remember
my head keeps starting to be disorganized
one or two times I had this thought
but it keeps being put back, so I'm sort of confused

just that it's nothing serious, just that it's a tiny piece of my heart
when I talk to you it feels a bit weird...
is it love? if you were the same as me, is it the start?
my heart keeps saying, "I love him!"
shout so that the whole world can hear..
why, I hear it now!
to meet each other, now we have found love...
if I try to describe my heart right now
the only way is for you to come into my heart and feel for yourself.
I'm already in you.
just as you're in my heart
we should be to each other (to each other)
already very good to each other, right?
is it love? if you were the same as me, is it the start?
my heart keeps saying, "I love him!"
shout so that the whole world can hear..
why, I hear it now!
to meet each other, now we have found love...
if I think about it.. in a lot of moments
there was a lot of longing
even if it's late, I'll make up for it to you.
let's be together. I'll only give you remembered memories.
don't leave my side again.
don't leave for even a moment.
please be by my side.
I was loving you so much like this.
already...

my new CaNiNe & FeLiNe BuDds :)

2006-09-22T18:23:00.000-07:00

Hi! This is hUi here!
Guess what... I have a new canine buddy! ~~~~~ Do u love animals? I must say that i am a crazy animal lover, guess what, because of my love for animals.. I go vegetarian! :):)~~~~~ sMiLeZ~~~~~~

But i totally despise those kind of people who have absolutely no respect for life around them, people who mistreat animals. Even people who mistreat people! Well if you're wondering what my new canine friend looked like, i will tell you that he is very ordinary (i'm very ordinary too). But to me, i do not bother what pedigree it is, i love my canine buddy for who he is, and i believe he loves me too for who i am too! :):)~~~~~sMiLeZ~~~~~~

Now now, about my feline buddy, she's cUtE! she's sWeEt! she's LoVeLY!

- no pedigree
- no expensive grooming (i groom her myself) :):):)~~~~~
- lovable!

!MyBeStFrIeNd! haha i guess gtg!

I gUess i gtg! BB! p.a.t! (*post another time)

IT lesson...

2006-08-16T20:46:00.000-07:00

hi!! long time no post.. i gues my msn space was much better, more updatd!!! go check it out!

Beloved

2006-06-18T19:58:00.000-07:00

yow za,,, so log since i posted in my blog, i just want to say that Books rule my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I juz love books, I'm currently reading this book : "I am a Cat" by Soseki Natsume, a japanese writer and juz finished this book : Beloved, by Toni Morrison, a beautifully written allegory, touching, its not romance instead its about a kind of love in its purest state, maybe thats the soul of the world, the kind of love between a child and parent, a special bond, that ties people together gently, the bond that bonds people together, it is special,, and it is called - love... ... ...

2006-01-19T02:56:00.000-08:00

NOT FAIR!!!! all my cousins they got mp3s lor!!!! no fair,,, i dont have... wahhh...

2006-01-19T02:38:00.000-08:00

2006-01-17T05:21:00.000-08:00

heyhey..ss is not that bad